fight me

Spilled my drink on my shirt again Left my car keys in the backseat of my van Why do I always do this? How'd I even get through this? Or is the mud stuck to my feet Walked to work in the rain again Joined the parade again Kept my heart too close to my sleeve Why do I always do this? How'd I even get through this? Always wiping off my feet Left myself in the rain How long do I have to wait before It's my turn to bloom? Could somebody say something The rain is turning into a Wave again And I just wanna know When the water drinks me whole There's a light to bring me home Fell asleep on the train again Woke up upside down from Everything I ever known Saw myself in a dream I barely know what it means My mind's replaying the good parts While I’m alone Talked to God in the waves again My throat was caving in Hearing the echos of my soul Who am I in this place? Whats the point of this drive? If I’m fighting to live Am I really alive? Left myself in the rain How long do I have to wait Before it’s my turn to bloom? Could somebody say something? The rain is turning into a Wave again And I just wanna know When the water drinks me whole There's a light to bring me home It's a cry for help As I lose myself In a search for an exit Get me out this hell If I can't find any hope I'll be blooming on my own Do it on my own Mm, I left myself in the rain How long, how long do I have to wait? I left, I left myself in the rain How long, how long? How long, how long? I try to Just believe in something I could do I'm too scared to find out... How long? No second chances, I'm done Forget the dreams I begun Take it away Can't let it stay I think I've already lost (How long?) Look me in the eye Tell me what's left of inside Am I the person I could be? How else am I to decide? (How long?) No second chances, I'm done Pick up the dream that I'd flung No other way, they're here to stay It doesn't matter the cost (How long?) Look me in the eye Tell me what's left of inside Don't know the person I could be When it's a fight to survive?