fight me

Spilled my drink on my shirt again
Left my car keys in the backseat of my van
Why do I always do this?
How'd I even get through this?
Or is the mud stuck to my feet

Walked to work in the rain again
Joined the parade again
Kept my heart too close to my sleeve
Why do I always do this?
How'd I even get through this?
Always wiping off my feet

Left myself in the rain
How long do I have to wait before
It's my turn to bloom?

Could somebody say something
The rain is turning into a
Wave again
And I just wanna know
When the water drinks me whole
There's a light to bring me home

Fell asleep on the train again
Woke up upside down from
Everything I ever known
Saw myself in a dream
I barely know what it means
My mind's replaying the good parts
While I’m alone

Talked to God in the waves again
My throat was caving in
Hearing the echos of my soul
Who am I in this place?
Whats the point of this drive?
If I’m fighting to live
Am I really alive?

Left myself in the rain
How long do I have to wait
Before it’s my turn to bloom?

Could somebody say something?
The rain is turning into a
Wave again
And I just wanna know
When the water drinks me whole
There's a light to bring me home

It's a cry for help
As I lose myself
In a search for an exit
Get me out this hell
If I can't find any hope
I'll be blooming on my own
Do it on my own

Mm, I left myself in the rain
How long, how long do I have to wait?
I left, I left myself in the rain
How long, how long?
How long, how long?

I try to
Just believe in something
I could do
I'm too scared to find out...
How long?

No second chances, I'm done
Forget the dreams I begun
Take it away
Can't let it stay
I think I've already lost
(How long?)
Look me in the eye
Tell me what's left of inside
Am I the person I could be?
How else am I to decide?
(How long?)

No second chances, I'm done
Pick up the dream that I'd flung
No other way, they're here to stay
It doesn't matter the cost
(How long?)
Look me in the eye
Tell me what's left of inside
Don't know the person I could be
When it's a fight to survive?