Shame

[Chorus: Josh Garrels] You fly in circles around my head While I sit on the edge of my bed I cry, oh, what have I done again? It's hard not to hate who I am It's hard not to hate who I am [Verse 1: Andy Mineo] I chase the moment that when I had it I felt alive But now that the thrill is gone, I feel dead inside I feel like everyone know the secrets I wanna hide And everytime they ask me how I'm doing, I just say "I'm fine" Too embarrassed to share it or maybe too much pride I create my own prison, holding the keys inside Punishing myself for all of these crimes And I'm trying to convince God that I'm not a waste of His time What's wrong with me? Am I defective? I keep on making a mess Why can't I ever get it together? Soon people gon' find out I'm not what they expected They see who I really am then I end up rejected I try to stand tall, but these knees are collapsing 'Stead of asking for help these apps'll distract me So lonely, but so many people are friending me While I post, I hope one day to be happy as I pretend to be [Chorus: Josh Garrels] You fly in circles around my head While I sit on the edge of my bed I cry, oh, what have I done again? It's hard not to hate who I am It's hard not to hate who I am [Verse 2: Andy Mineo] Uh, I was thirteen the first time my momma caught me watching porn She started screaming, she couldn't believe her last born Was dabbling in something so destructive I wish I could have said it was my last time, but nah, it wasn't And the more I thought about it, the more I got bothered These women I'm objectifying are somebody's daughters I never really thought I had a problem till it followed me to college And I felt debilitated by its bondage, uh Became a Christian, heard about God's power Couldn't see it in my life, but I could tell you all about it Overloaded with knowledge, making so little progress Became a public figure, but my struggles were in private Only started tasting freedom when I'm being honest And I learn that when I'm weak is when I'm seeing God the strongest I know some people gon' be quick to throw stones But I'll take all of those hits so you know that you not alone And after 28 years of life, I decided Everybody's crooked, some just do a better job at hiding it Oh, how good does freedom taste? I hope they give me the forgiveness they gon' need one day I pray [Bridge: Josh Garrels] Jesus, He washes away all of my sin Washes away all my sin Jesus washes away all of my sin Jesus, He washes away all of my sin Washes away all my sin Jesus washes away all of my sin Jesus, He washes away all of my sin Washes away all my sin Jesus washes away all of my sin Jesus, He washes away all of my sin Washes away all my sin Jesus washes away all of my sin Jesus, He washes away all of my sin Washes away all my sin Jesus washes away all of my sin Jesus, He washes away all of my sin Washes away all my sin Jesus washes away all of my sin [Refrain: Choir & Andy Mineo] Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh He washes away all of my sin (Oh) He washes away all of my sin (Oh) He washes away all of my sin (Oh) He washes away all of my sin (Oh) He washes away all of my sin (Oh) He washes away all of my sin (Oh) He washes away all of my sin (Oh) He washes away all of my sin (Oh) Oh, oh, oh