Ordinary

I notice how she looks at me And I pretend that I don't see It's easier if I let the tension subside I've seen it in the books I read A magic that you cannot see There's no limitations, they wear it with pride But the characters I read never act or look like me I can't depend on them to lead me through the right door And what's the point of falling when I know I'm only stalling? 'Cause I have to go back home Where I'm just one in the herd, tripping ovеr my words Trying hard to go with the grain Keeping the quirks in my brain I'm on the brink of discovеry, I think But what if I'm dreaming? That's what it seems like 'Cause this girl thinks I'm part of her world And that new territory's scary If I turn the handle, am I asking for a scandal? Should I try to be ordinary? Baah! I've always been a little odd The only pea inside the pod That's not an expression, I'm guessing, oh well God, see? that's exactly what I mean! I'm just as awkward as I seem Plus she makes me nervous, I hope she can't tell What is it she sees in this cluster clump of me Or could it maybe be I'm going crazy? And hey, who am I kidding? This isn't some sweet beginning Just a detour to the end Then back to the herd, tripping over my words Trying hard to go with the grain Keeping the quirks in my brain I'm on the brink of discovery, I think But what if I'm dreaming? Do I rewind? Induce amnesia? Pretend I didn't see her? Succumb to stupid fear Or just believe in my heart? Why play a part? Why follow the herd? Why not trust in my words? Don't wanna go with the grain! Don't wanna make myself plain? I'm on the brink of rediscovery, I think So what if I'm dreaming? I like the scene that I'm in And this girl is a part of my world The thought of being normal's far more scary I'll be brave and I'll be kind I'll make a choice and change my mind I will mess up all of the time They'll say I'm weird, but I'll be fine I'll be anything but ordinary