Nowadays, I just don't know which way to go with my life
One moment I want a life in physics passionate about light
And the next, there is no other thing to do than just write
I'm willing to fight, I just want to have some goals in sight
I have to choose between a studies forty hours a week
Writing rhymes all of the time and making another beat
Getting fit for the summer and gaining muscles by meat
Not forgetting 'bout my friends across the land for the weekend
I'm sorry, I also help some stay on their feet
Next to that I had a girl, who I love and I need
I give everyone attention but I'm forgetting me
It's just so hard to be, at three places at the same time
Doing certain things when there are others on my damn mind
God give me a damn sign, which way should I go?
Should I take the safest route or did you do plan something more?
Do you have something planned for me?
Is that the reason that I lately am losing sleep?
Well, I don't know, but I will refuse defeat
I will rise up and keep on standing on my own two feet
Choosing the path that I want and not the path that I need
'cause life was made for having fun so that's what I will get done
I'm on a run, not away from my fears but on the way to my dreams
And it seems people used to wonder about NOD
Say things like I couldn't do it, it's probably a scheme
But I surprised them all, cause they would have never expected
Me to have shot at something, always being neglected
But I pushed through, didn't give up and now I'm here
Stronger than ever with self esteem and I got nothing to fear
Though in my mind striving forward, I'm still nowhere near
Seeing myself in in the mirror, after all these years
Sometimes feeling so damn proud of what I've become
While other times I just see opportunities that are gone
While being so young, I'm already feeling old sometimes
It's crazy how quickly time can just fly by
In primary school, a year would take so long I'd die
Nowadays, things months ahead already feel so nigh
And when they done, it feels like they are always so long gone
Like it didn't even happen in the time I'm from
It just feels like I have wasted so much time undone
Now I feel so dumb, gaming all my days away
When I could also just have made another song today
Put in that work, not letting motivation fade to grey
But it's safe to say that I will never be chasing paves
Cause now I see the value of a life while time remains
I feel so blessed I swear I promise I will better my life
Not taking anything for granted 'cause there always just might come a time
When it's over and and all you have left is closure
You still wanted so much things, can't keep composure
Now you're crying over your nightmares, 'cause they came true
And you knew the day would come, just hoped it wouldn't be so soon
It's real, and that's just how I feel
So don't keep chasing circles running 'round and 'round
Always pick a fight with fate and go make yourself proud
'cause life is way too short to sit around and figure it out
Go for it now, as time is running out
