No Roses

[Verse 1: E L U C I D] Shouting from beneath the surface I stated committed but I wasn't perfect Was it worth it? Mostly indifferent but served her purpose No roses Hairpin curves the roads frozen Oh dip Watch him disappear beneath her nose Unload then roaming Castle Hill at 4 a.m Spent and Foggy threw up in your lobby like I won't be back again Cleaning up my act hat left by the mantle Next to 90's R&B CD's and tea candles Fuck it, keeping lies straight no yaki Wonder if she really put it past me Heart committed wasn't hardly perfect Second guessing this ain't really working Moments played out, sudden urges Weak, speak of the devil Wetter than last remembered Repeat offender Whats it take to make me reconsider Swear she ain't playing second fiddle for another winter Her baby boy getting big First met him in his mothers womb That ain't mine, she let me splash Inside First time raw, no balloon I come through tell her no perfume Consuming my bassoon Blue cheese moon, blowing sour boom We got history just a chemistry thang Peeled outta memory lane Man I know I been changed [Verse 2: billy woods] Like it was yesterday, sitting in the waiting room finally out of things to say No fear in your face replaced by something I couldn’t place then Nor articulate today Scales weighed gave way to beds made, closed eyes Holding your hand felt like a lie Clenched till you ground bone & knuckle Came home bombed, tried to live in the rubble Thought it would be enough that I loved you Maybe I didn’t love you enough While you slept reached for the crutch No woods in your hood made do with a vanilla dutch Stalked through Hell’s Kitchen, torch cuffed, eyes peeled but Strangely, didn’t give a fuck 42nd, swept in the crush, human tides under blinking lights Thinking about the device, the life unchosen The unknown price paid in that moment Empty words, earnestly spoken, copper tokens on debts imposing Cops hopped out the unmarked whip, said they seen me smoking Aggressive patdown but the L is down a storm drain floating Radio’s crackling, fresh action One clapped me on the back: “Don’t be out here when we circle” The blood was black-purple Tiptoed inside, cupped your stomach from behind Was I really asleep, or was I just that blind?