Persevere

Fragmented memories pierce through my skull Lacerating pain, the black dog has its hold Catatonic I wait, please give me an answer My guilt grows malignant just like a cancer I focus the light, the lens burns my skin Revealing the pain that i've held within You were my best friend a brother and a son Some days I wish it was me who died young You are home Lost inside my head With the memories of the dead I’ll move on Lift the stone This weight that carries on It's you who keeps me strong I’ll be alright An ocean of sorrow stirs from within Waves crash in unison under my skin This hole in my heart, forgiveness I need I don't deserve it no matter how much I bleed I couldn't bring myself to help, or to speak But I guess that I have to accept that I am weak I want to move on, but I can't stay afloat Its my guess your family is in the same boat You are home Lost inside my head With the memories of the dead I’ll move on Lift the stone This weight that carries on It's you who keeps me strong I’ll be alright So many times I've asked myself, what if I could've done something different, something that would've changed the outcome, something that would've prevented your demise, something that would save all of us close to you. Is this some kind of sick game god plays, does he even give a shit about us? Are we all alone? Nevertheless what's done is done and I'll strive to be as kind as you were. There'll be setbacks, I'll make mistakes and I'll hurt people, but I will do everything in my power to be there for the ones close to me Two steps forward One step back Two steps forward One step back Two steps forward One step back