i know now

With an x o on my heart And your hands around my face I keep bleeding out my scars, but i can see that you're okay Left a collar on my neck, and a splinter in my hand I can bitch about my problems, i don't think you'd understand I can bitch bout how i felt the day you left me And my brain feels like a prison so arrest me Now i cant feel a thing And i know that you changed on me But just know i won't change on you I thought you cared about me, i thought i was something To you I been tryna find a way to keep myself from crashing Been carrying your pain i think my fucking back hurts I think if it fell apart you'd take away the rations You said you love me tell me how the fuck does that work Tell me I'm okay I would rather not be here at all than see your fucking face Nails dig inside my fingertips I peel my skin away Leave me buried in the sand I shouldn't have took that leap of faith Guess i wasn't lying imma see it to the end Girl i cant come to terms with believing that we friends When you come around again you rip my heart to shreds Will you pull this trigger if i put it to my Would you pull that trigger if i didn't see it through Or would you find an issue in the things that I would do All the time, on my mind, memories of you You out of line, please don't put that pressure on me... too Put that pressure on me Got your problems up and then you left it on me Yeah i swear you dropped the lesson on me But now i got you stressing on me, yeah More than a common interest Definition of a contradiction Can you hold me down an go the distance Or will your love become my restriction So lets take this night out and try to find out if Our loves prevailed and if i should reach out And see how you're doing; body language, fluent But i think i know now just how this might turn out I don't know when i last felt sane But i hope that she don't run past Overdose when i go thru pain Cuz i know that you wont come back Imma smoke till my lungs go black Imma cope till i meet my end If i sprint and i don't catch up Can i know if we'd still be friends If i sprint and i don't catch up Can i know if we'd still be friends Can i know if we'd still be friends If i sprint and i don't catch up Can i know if we'd still be friends