Army

[Verse 1] Nothing feels the same since you got home Someone swapped the pictures on your wall Photos of evaporated men Torn up bodies thrown across the sand There's nothing worse than losing your arm [Verse 2] She's been really great since I got back I'm afraid she knows I'm off the map She's been trying to talk inside my mouth I've been trying to calm my conscious down There's nothing worse than losing your spine [Chorus] When I dream I see your dad holding your throat His mouth up to your ear, he's screaming, "I've been shot" You bank on a linear life evolved by your command You'll find the painful prize of watching it unhinge [Verse 3] You, you took it harder than our friends I'm afraid you're spiraling again Ran into your family at the go Looked like they'd been living with a ghost There's nothing worse than a poverty line [Verse 4] I can hardly look at her that way Naked bodies haven't looked the same I can't tell her why she's gotta stop Too ashamed to open that one knock There's nothing worse than being intertwined [Chorus] You've been dreaming I'm the dad you never had Having out of body visions of my death Bank on a catered life that bends for your demands Expect the painful prize of watching it unhinge [Verse 5] I remember back when we were kids Life without a paralyzing mid Now we get together in a glass Hardly speak to watch the silence pass There's nothing worse than silent alarm [Verse 6] We were trying awkwardly to sleep Detailed out your plan on my machine They still astounded in the dark Shocked that it had finally fallen apart There's nothing worse than losing your mind [Chorus] I've been dreaming of this unrelenting love Depreciated gasping towards a new unknown It was a trusted ride before the water froze I found the painful prize is rowing it alone [Verse 7] Drove out to the desert in your van Drank some gasoline and made love to your hand Cursed your God below for what he'd done Before you sucked a bullet from your father's gun There's nothing worse than losing your life [Verse 8] At your funeral she took my hand Placed it on the baby in your lap I've been trying my best to find my peace But they both look like criminals to me There's nothing worse than trusting a lie [Bridge] When I dream I see your body inside hers When I wake I see your face but call it off The less you care for it, the less it has to grow I can't abandon it and watch it turn to smoke [Outro] Recently I'm working on myself Starting to convince myself it helps There's nothing wrong with being alive