Shoot My Self

[Tabs] One more blunt to roast before I fade to black I'm lost in this dutch smoke I'm just hoping I make it back My backs breaking from carrying sacred facts I see my fate, I can't even escape these blatant raps I'm insane kid, they stuck me in this crazy life I'm tryna change shit without the Huggies and the baby wipes My eyes focused, smoke chronic in high doses Cuz I noticed it counteracts my psychosis And how did I get to be so mentally deranged If your friends are mean then essentially you're the same I don't need a remedy, got a propensity for pain Used to swear by the memory but eventually it changed Potentially insane from all the anguish and torment Outside of Heaven's gate left to languish on the doorstep Walk of death, short of breath, my soul is numb Don't be surprised when you find a note and a smoking gun [Coal Cash] That's one more second gone, another season behind me So lonely yesterday, one day you may not find me Remind me why we try, can't recollect the reason Needing this freezing rain, numb the pain of my veins bleeding Fleeting before my eyes, sunrise til skies darken Harking the reaper's call til my skull's an empty compartment Pardon my brain's ??, stain the walls of my apartment Sharpen the guillotine, pillows never cease to ?? Past the harshest darkness that flow from my carcass The death march approaching, toast a Gnostic on a star ship My heart is arctic, I'm too lethargic to guard it Regarded it's hard to do and I'm the one who drew the target Bombarded I'm running through, nothing new to the pain I feel If it's in my brain the explain why the chains are real Aiming to heal, peel back the vested wound Death or rest, a vestige manifested from a flesh cocoon [Hook - Coal] This pain runs deep, all I wanna do is sleep Just to wake from my bed so I can hear the dead speak Welcome back to this hell that you create Welcome back to the hell you can't escape [2x] [Tones] I'm numb from the pain with a gun in my brain Pulling the trigger, bullets switch the sun into rain I've come to explain, nothing's the same Waiting for something to change but I'm stuck in a cage Cuffed by they chains on my way to waste a hunnit days Blunted from the haze, some live through the maze Play touch by haters, the hell that love create Just to escape, busting how my slug can I take Fuck it, popping and breaking a discussion with fate Anger make me wanna shoot someone up in they face After drags of marijuana I'm too fucking blazed Scratching Bad Karma give me a disgusting taste The under shaved inter drones mechanized sheep Energized deep poetry memorized in a week When you see my brain laid out found effortless peace I can hear the dead speak whenever I sleep [Coast] It's better I reach and try to get a grip on this reality But every time I leave it only leads me to insanity A casualty, the savagery of action that I once used Reminds of the mind fucking stunts that these cunts do Can I get a one two, one two check it I'm designed to treat the lives that I run through wrecking Like they ain't have a chance, I glance over from today's news And notice that society is blinded by these lame fools If I was the same dude then I ain't have a plan yet And wasn't washing down a bunch of booze with all this Xanax I would be a damn mess sweating over mad stress You should give me credit for my word like an Amex That I don't deserve, I'm the worst type of piece of shit Like I changed to an animal from a decent kid I was always fucked, ask my mother she can tell ya Don't even bother with your stories I could never help ya (Hook)