Lullaby

[Intro] Every time I die a little more inside When you told me to speak on it, I'ma speak on it, fuck it Mumble rap, man Mumble rap right? That’s what we doin’? Yeah, Alright [Verse] Wonder if God heard me pray when I was trying to repent If he didn't, I know he heard my mother cry over rent Then you wonder why the mood inside this room is so tense No offense, but I don't really got nowhere to go vent Oh yeah, success is like a drug, and I been high on the scent Feel like I wasted all the money, and the time that I spent Maybe the tears inside my eyes had me blind with revenge I told her even if we crash I'ma ride 'till the end There I go lying again, don’t know why I pretend Hold up, let me try this again Lord, you know I never open up Abusing drugs, never thinking I was dope enough She's over me when I'm the one that she's supposed to love At least my heart broke enough for the both of us They told me play your part (play your part) Boy we different, you smart Let her lay in your bed don't ever let a bitch in your heart Still around the same ones that I was with from the start Though the distance got us drifting apart Felt betrayed Swear to God 'till this day man this shit hit my heart Wanted to shine so bad that I got left in the dark Still love you Can’t help but see that kid in the park Runnin' 'round the town looking for some shit we can start Any issues I was right there with it (I was) I bought my dream house, but I been having nightmares in it The game ugly Just tell me why you can't love me (why?) Or why the fuck you're ashamed of me You can't judge me That's why I stay numb And the smartest thing I ever did was play dumb (Uh) Staying up nights 'till my day comes Old memories had me wishin’ that we stayed young I'm a mess thinkin' less so I'm saying more I talk to God about you so I'm praying more That's why I smoke a hundred blunts straight Pops left, moms cried for a month straight Used to cry too but I would never show her Superwoman feel blessed if you ever know her Look at all this shit that we made it through They bugged the house and they raid it too If that ain't ironic I'm a crazy fool Play it cool, baby, play it cool They don't acknowledge my accomplishments My opp was just a optimist I'm copping shit, but still I'm not convinced that this is opulence I can probably fuck Pocahontas right out her moccasins Killing everything that I'm authoring like the offering Ten stitches with my limbs twitching You ever went through withdrawals 'till ya skin itches? Huh Screaming "Fuck what you think" Tears falling while I write it down, smudging the ink Please pour out a couple of drinks Sometimes I wish that I was up there with Chinx You wouldn't even care if I ever died So I wrote this for the tears that you'll never cry Lullaby