Halfway

Don't really care that I'm at an airport every dinner tastes like cardboard Every song has all of the same chords All of my clothes don't fit in the same way Every step forward feels like a mistake I still pretend I know what he would say But I don't Never will And it's fine But it's also really not Halfway good, halfway bad Halfway really fucking mad Almost wish it would pass Halfway kinda want it back Halfway meeting someone else Halfway nothing really helps me unfeel how I felt Halfway back to myself I, I I used to think those nights were the hardest Pain right there that spot where your heart is I didn't know that I would be missing How good it hurt how good it hurt It's better than whatever the hell this is Sitting alone and secretly wishing You'll come and hurt me all over again Maybe it's worse maybe it's worse Or its not Yes it is And I'm fine But I'm also really not, I'm Halfway good, halfway bad Halfway really fucking mad Almost wish it would pass Halfway kinda want it back Halfway meeting someone else Halfway nothing really helps me unfeel how I felt Halfway back to myself Ahhhh Ahhh Halfway me, halfway you Halfway trying to undo Halfway scared that I'll forget all the good things we went through Halfway here, halfway trying To just feel like I'm not dying Halfway put you on a shelf Halfway back to myself I'm