It Won't Always Feel So Heavy

[Verse 1] Tell me how you think I'm gonna move on from this 'Cause some of my thoughts are particularly venomous I'm relying on your optimism to keep me sane I've been making moves and you're calling them baby steps To be honest, think that's overly generous But I can't afford to think of it any other way [Pre-Chorus] But what happens if I can't pull myself together? I'm scared to death that I'll be this way forever [Chorus] I starve myself at every minor reminder of it Don't even mean to anymore, I'm just on autopilot I see it clearly, it's still vivid whenеver I blink I'm feeling faulty, so I'm hanging on to your words when you tell mе It won't always feel so heavy [Verse 2] The feeling's growing, I can feel it there in my chest It won't be long until it tries to control my head There's only so much more of this I can take I wanna make it out but I feel smaller now So I bet it all on your promise, don't you dare break that promise [Pre-Chorus] 'Cause what happens if I can't pull myself together? I swear that I don't wanna be this way forever [Chorus] I starve myself at every minor reminder of it Don't even mean to anymore, I'm just on autopilot I see it clearly, it's still vivid whenever I blink I'm feeling faulty, so I'm hanging on to your words when you tell me It won't always feel so heavy [Bridge] They say I've got this thing that soldiers come back from the war with That feels too much for me, I've got to wrap my head around it The battle ruined me and I can't change the fact it happened But I'll be damned to give the memory that same satisfaction [Chorus] I starve myself at every minor reminder of it But I don't need to anymore, switch off the autopilot I see it clearly, there's a future that I want to live I feel more like me, now I think I understand when you tell me It won't always feel so heavy