Make Believe

I'm stuck here staring at the door I know she'll ask me what the fuck I'm waiting for I need to start dragging my feet These days are getting so much harder to complete Suffocating choking While they're holding me down Say, "we're having fun joking" Then run off with the crowd No one seems to hear me But I know I make sound Maybe there is a bubble around me that I don't know about I see all their laughter Wish I knew what it's like To feel joy in the daytime 'Cause I live for the night In a place filled with wonder Where I do what I want I don't need anybody around me They'd only mess it all up I wish I was older I would be like that girl The version of me that I dream about being When it starts to hurt Cause I'm in a crisis And it's only the start But I just keep telling myself to keep going And heal all the scars I'm stuck here staring at the door I know she'll ask me what the fuck I'm waiting for Out there it's all so hard and mean But nothing bad could ever get me in my "Make believe"