Fumbling

I don't want to stay up Fumbling all night Waiting for something that I can't control I was raised to only focus on the ones I love And it's you now, you know I walk in alone And if I had known that you weren't here I would have just stayed home I think you would have smiled when you saw the walls They're covered in paisley and cigarette tar The kind of room where the lights can't get low enough Oh, but I had you for a second there My second rate love And your calm disposition And now I just feel so unsure But I don't want to stay up Fumbling all night Waiting for something that I can't control I was raised to only focus one the ones I love And it's you now, you know And I don't want to wake up, freaking out, Cold sweat, shaking, and sleeping in all my clothes I was raised to only live for the ones that I hold dear And it's you now as well And it's you now In my mind We walk home alone You take everything you can from a 7-Eleven Kicking a condo door I watch as you admire the art on the walls We kiss in the kitchen And you pretend that they're yours Leave a card on the counter And then we walk back home Oh, but I had you for a second there My second rate love And your calm disposition And now I just feel so insecure But I don't want to stay up Fumbling all night Waiting for something that I can't control I was raised to only focus on the ones I love And it's you now, you know And I don't want to wake up, freaking out, Cold sweat, shaking, and sleeping in all my clothes I was raised to only live for the ones that I hold dear And it's you now as well I'm always looking for you in a room that you leave in But I don't want to stay up Fumbling all night Waiting for something that I can't control I was raised to only focus on the ones I love And it's you now, you know And I don't want to wake up, freaking out, Cold sweat, shaking, and sleeping in all my clothes I was raised to only live for the ones that I hold dear And it's you now as well And it's you now