Not Even Here

I lie awake I fall asleep To dream [?] To dream the things you never said to me Things I wish you'd said to me Cause it's not your fault I don't blame this on you She's lost control Of the way she feels I put myself in the way of it [?] I lie awake Make the same mistake Time, time again I wish that it could end Right here When I wanted you I never wanted to leave Any space for rejection Leave any space for connection It keeps me wanting more [?] And I want you (want you) [?] I wish you could see your [?] [?] I'm not even here