Try as I May

Try as I may I'm still fighting for you In my own long-suffering way You were meant to watch My private ceremonies All in the dark parts of rooms Try as I may To hold your crazy ass against the wall In my scared, my scared-shitless way You came down to see My private ceremonies All on the floor of this room Try as I may I am always kept safe In my, in my right minded hell You were born to hold My cannonball brain Like the Lord holds the moon Try as I may I never did seduce the wall With my spinning and my swinging and spineless ways Try as I may I'm still fighting for you In my sad, sad little rock-throwing way You were meant to watch Over my ceremonies All from the dark in my shoe Try as I may To be heard through the wall To be seen getting loud on the phone You were born to break my big hairy football arms Like clean windows kill the birds Try as I may I am bitching to the wall Of my long-armed and knuckle-scraping ways I hadn't sailed 30 feet When I drowned in expensive clothes For the oysters all to see Try as I may To love what fits in my hand I don't, I don't