heart attack

I thought of letting her out She's a big brave girl now, I can't relate I feel like a horse or a shark, I could sleep standing up In the daytime I'm falling awake I picture a cat who looks like Juno on the fence It gives me a heart attack, I can't lose another friend I'm measuring up against the wall again It's always the same but maybe this time I've changed Crosswalk, go now, green light, forever counting down Check first, left right, blackout, must've run out of time I thought of letting it go Create a record-breaking ball of snow Too big to catch it but I could if I had just reached out like half a year ago Everybody's screaming, waving, fainting in the pit Just give me a heart attack, I'm fucking losing it I'm measuring up against the wall again It's always the same but maybe this time I've changed I'm measuring up against the wall again It's always the same but maybe this time I've changed Gasping for air like there's a lack of oxygen You'll have to drag me back, I can't do this again