Cheer Captain

I was nine and talking to God in the shower I knew he was busy, said "Sorry to bother But why am I so bad at being pretty like my mother?" I wanted to please her Guess I've always been a people pleaser I tried to be quiet, play nice But I knew I wasn't doing it right And I cried, wiped my eyes, and then smiled 'Cause they didn't know I was living a lie I don't know when it happened But I don't wanna be your cheer captain I shouldn't have called, I know he's probably busy And when he fucks me over I'll say that I'm sorry And then I'll take it all off so he says that he wants me 'Cause I'm a people pleaser And now he's doing lines with the boys on a Monday Showed up at my house, all strung out, like, a day late Watched his stupid band at the club, no one else came I'm a people pleaser but I don't want to be her I tried to be quiet, play nice But I knew I wasn't doing it right And I cried, wiped my eyes, and then smiled 'Cause they didn't know I was living a lie I don't know when it happened But I don't wanna be your cheer captain How did I let it happen? I don't wanna be your cheer captain I was so sad then I don't wanna be your cheer captain Wish that I knew then That I don't wanna be your cheer captain