Kool-Aid

Empty my cup just to refill it Never good at saying what I mean Pour out the Kool-Aid, and I'll drink it Can you feel it coursing through my veins? It's not what I want It's not what I want It's not what I want Drawing a line straight through my thoughts Pull out the knife and clean it off Surrender to the fear that lives inside me Stare into to the mirror and meet my shame It's not what I want It's not what I want It's not what I want Just sometimes It's not what I want It's not what I want It's not what I want It's not what I want It's not what I want