Living in the Grey

I was hopeless in the bathroom with a rainbow bar Took 27 years just to land this part Was it all I ever wanted? Was it a dream come true? I was looking in the mirror, saying "Who the fuck are you" I brought my fears with me and some shiny shoes They told me to be happy and then plied me with booze I had a picture with my family on the background of my phone To give myself some company but it made me more alone And it hurts sometimes Even when the weather's fine Even when my child smiles Yeah people say it's black and white But I'm living in the grey Yeah I'm living in the grey I was pulling back my sleeves, soaked in salt Clinging to the darkness like everything was my fault And I held to the table, I could hardly move Yeah my voice was kinda shaky in this crimson leather booth And if all the whisky's mine tonight I should stay up late And drink to the boy I used to be And the man I am today And it hurts sometimes Even when the weather's fine Even when my child smiles Yet people say it's black and white But I'm living And it hurts sometimes Even when the weather's fine Even when my child smiles Yeah people say it's black and white But I'm living in the grey Yeah I'm living in the grey Oh yeah Yeah I'm living in the grey