Taboo, or not Taboo?

Just another warm body with mental illness Plain to see I'm never gonna accomplish anything Just because I come with thumbs does not mean I can keep it up How is it that everyone is better than me Each mistake I make is enough To b-b-break b-b-break b-b-b-break me Therapy and medicine costs more than suicide I really wanna - really need to ask you Why do I stay alive? Why is this topic so elusive? Can you tell me now? Taboo Or Not Taboo oh Nobody can answer my question There's still hope for you don't do it Well where's this hope that everyone flaunts? Life without fluoxetine is just another fucking dream oh Statistical anomaly I bet that all the blames on me Cause after all I should have seen all of the things that can't be seen All of the chemicals inside my brain attempt to pick at yours in vain I hope that my stupid isn't that contagious I got a lotta issues going on upstairs It's like nobody cares I talk and just get stares Was not supposed to share Is post traumatic past dramatic? This isn't erratic It's pragmatic think about it Somebody please explain Why is this topic so elusive? Can you tell me now? Taboo Or Not Taboo oh Somebody please ANSWER THE QUESTION There's still hope for you don't do it Well where's this hope that everyone flaunts!? Life without fluoxetine is just another fucking dream yeah I'd say some generic edgy writer shit like "don't read this" but I know you wouldn't if I said that, and the disgusting truth is, I want someone to read this. I've never cared about your issues, so why would you care about mine. After all, I'm just some self aware fuckboy with anxiety and thumbs. That's great and all, but then we add the fact that I've got minimal control over myself, and all I can do is try to prevent life from getting worse. Obviously preventing mistakes and recovering from them aren't the same thing so I'm stuck in this cycle of self hatred, trying to get better until I fuck up again and get back to treating myself like the retard that I am Why is this topic so elusive Can you tell me now Taboo Or Not Taboo oh Nobody can answer my question They say time will kill the pain But I know this will never change I'm the perfect moron, well I won't be for long This is my FALL Oh No Oh Yeah