forever dreaming

[Verse 1] I always feel as though I'm nothing more than just a shell These incessant self-reminders make my life a living hell If only I could be somebody else for just today Maybe all of my small insecurities would slip away I could analyze and pick apart what makes me who I am Then I’ll reconstruct the good in me and make a better man Maybe one who isn't lazy or as scatterbrained at that Or maybe I'll just sit alone and continue being sad Complacency is key if you should recreate the past First, you start with all your mistakes Followed suit with bitter laughs Once you’ve successfully stretched yourself beyond so very thin You can reap the seed you sow and never be comfortable and your own skin [Bridge] I know that you'll never hear this but I'm sorry for the person that I used to be I'd like to think I've changed (I'd like to think I've changed) I'd like to think I’ve changed (I’d like to think I've changed) [Hook] I look like hell I feel like hell Jesus, I should be in hell I look like hell I feel like hell Jesus, I should be in hell [Verse 2] I wake to see that my friends aren’t talking anymore It's insatiable, my longing to just be with them once more But times will change, it's silly to think friends will stick around Times will change it's silly to think friends will stick around I always feel as though it’s like I'm running from the past My imaginative outbursts, killing kings with sleight of hand The bridges I have burned from all the shitty things I did But now I know I've made my bed and I'm the one who lies in it [Bridge] I'm sorry for the person that I used to be I'd like to think I've changed (I'd like to think I've changed) But the person that I used to be has come back to kill me [Hook] I look like hell I feel like hell Jesus, I should be in hell I look like hell I feel like hell Jesus, I should be in hell I look like hell I feel like hell Jesus, I should be in hell I look like hell I feel like hell Jesus, I should be in hell