Hold Back Tears

[Intro] Yeah Hmm Gotta hold back tears sometimes, man [Chorus] I think about my nigga Chris, I gotta hold back tears Think about B-Wiz, I gotta hold back tears Think about Melec's son, I gotta hold back tears Think about Derek Bishop, gotta hold back tears Think about Monet's son, I gotta hold back tears Monet is like a brother to me, shit, we go back years Think about my grandmother, gotta hold back tears Crazy Eight ridin', gotta hold back tears [Refrain] Ayo, I cried when Dough Boy died I cried when 'Chine Gun Black died Tears burst out of my eyes Yo, I cried when D-Black died Ayo, I cried when 'Liq Racks died Tears burst out of my eyes [Interlude] Yeah Somebody said I sounded depressed in a lot of my songs now Shit, hell yeah, I'm depressed, I lost a child, nigga You know the love don't feel real no more, homie I'm fucked up for real [Verse] You ever lost somebody close to your heart, then you know the feelin' To get Crazy Eight and my granny back, I'd give back these millions I wish she lived long enough to meet my two children People don't know what I been goin' through and what I been feelin' Truth is I'm spiralin', feel like I'm 'bout to lose it My label only concern is, "When you turnin' in the music?" And I ain't tryna come off ungrateful, that'd be foolish It turned me into a recluse, but I ain't the dude to make excuses It's useless, they like, "Machine, why you ghost us for?" I care a lot until I don't no more I isolate myself to heal so I don't hurt no more Keep pickin' at that same scab, gon' leave an open sore Look like I'm good on the surface, inside, I'm hurtin' I just hope when it's over, I'm worthy of Allah's mercy Have mercy [Chorus] I think about my nigga Chris, I gotta hold back tears Think about B-Wiz, I gotta hold back tears Think about Melec's son, I gotta hold back tears Think about Derek Bishop, gotta hold back tears Think about Monet's son, I gotta hold back tears Monet is like a brother to me, shit, we go back years Think about my grandmother, gotta hold back tears Crazy Eight ridin', gotta hold back tears [Refrain] Ayo, I cried when Dough Boy died I cried when 'Chine Gun Black died Tears burst out of my eyes Yo, I cried when D-Black died Ayo, I cried when 'Liq Racks died Tears burst out of my eyes [Outro: Crazy Eight] Yo, Demond, this Crazy Eight, man I was just callin' to see how you was doin', I ain't what shit, man I heard your new songs, man, I'm proud of you, man I love you, man You know what I'm sayin', keep doin' your thing, man And don't let nobody ask you for shit 'Cause ain't nobody give you shit, you heard? Love you, one