Empty Nesting Doll

I'm sorry I never told you I cared I didn't think it meant much I never was aware The house you built It was too much of a home The guilt is harder to stomach once we're old and alone Comfort is too much of an ask When digging up regret from the past A joyous occasion overshadowed with grief Peel back the pain and find a sense of relief Cut me open hear me out Bleed me dry of the useless doubt I've grown lines on my face Missing you- a road I thought I'd never take At no fault but my own I thought I'd finally grown Past the petty bullshit But now I think I'm losing it The photos pile up high Wish we had more time to ask why? Now I try to make sense It's unfortunate but it's a part of life At no fault but my own I thought I'd finally grown Past the petty bullshit I'm losing it It might be time to shut my fucking mouth No one listens No one listens to me If I may make a suggestion Stop asking all these useless questions I can't help but feel this way A heaviness I've never known- I'll be ok Internalize, rationalize- any means to make it through the day