Deal breaker

(Verse 1: CYN) Started going off on the wrong path so I had to set it straight Codeine and it's mixed up I like the colour change in my lemonade Say your coke is best in state it's heavy cut with benzocaine Thinking my mates wanna snake me so I'm using scales to check the weight I swear that my friends have changed I should be happy they're evolving Lemonade haze I'm rolling straight green I'm smoking the whole thing You want the real truth I haven't told it Play your cards right or just fold thеm You want the real truth I haven't told it Ay but hеre it is Popping pills ten minutes before work finishes so by the time I get home they're kicking in I'm in the deep end and it's sink or swim I've been swallowed up and I'm giving in Everyday thinking how I could end my life looking back until now I wish I did My whole vision distorted a vicious cycle that I'm caught in I'm sick of sipping heavy the boys say I gotta quit but I don't think I'm ready I gotta wash this pill down so you know the go chasers give me any Could have fucked up my life from bricks and henny If I gotta mix I gotta sip until it's empty I can't keep the picture steady tell me why the fuck does a devil want to tempts me (Verse 2: CYN) Glad to have my mates by my side we've laughed we've fought and we've cried Somehow I'm knee deep in snow in the middle of the summertime how do I think that I love this life Countless times I've watched my mother cry Therapy sessions together that's not a lie Now I'm on the rise but I'm probably already at the top in another life I was on a path of destruction fuck the scripts and their seduction I'm soul searching Fuck it's confronting 19 looking at my life thinking that I've fucked it I took a gamble and I paid the price Developed a persona in my head and it came to life I'm asking the same question who am I Took a step away from music but I couldn't stop its crime Now I'm drinking beer every night I wake up in cold sweats and fear of my life These nightmares are bringing tears to my eyes I bottle it up I should be clearing my mind I gotta clear it out voices in my head the only thing I'm hearing now Shadows behind corners keep peering out Hundreds of people in the crowd cheering loud Painkillers to kill the pain faded as fuck but I feel the same Made a deal with the devil but don't tell him that the deal's changed Painkillers to kill the pain faded as fuck but I feel the same