Letter to Levi

So many things I could think about to say Since December 3rd I think about them every day I just wanna be the father you look up to as you age Be the person that I tell you you should emulate I look into your eyes and the feeling it is strange Never thought that I could love somebody so much in a day Hold your hand and my heart it gives way And I hold it in the dark so you're not afraid Just the three of us, you really couldn't have a better mom When she saw you I knew that you'd never leave her arms We were crying and in that moment three of us would bond Everyone and everything were gone, you were all we saw It was crazy and in that moment everything had changed 'Cause the second you arrived I knew that nothing was the same Little Levi, did you know that almost was my name? Grandma loved it so when you grow up I hope you feel the same I love our conversations, every day there's something new you learn Yesterday you couldn't flip around, now all you do is turn Now you're grabbing things and by that I mean everything in reach Every day I get to see your little personality Everything is happening so quick, you're already six months old Man, where did the time go? Let's just cherish every moment, always looking toward the better And when I'm gone you will always have this letter So many things I could think about to say Since December 3rd I think about them every day I just wanna be the father you look up to as you age Be the person that I tell you you should emulate I look into your eyes and the feeling it is strange Never thought that I could love somebody so much in a day Hold your hand and my heart it gives way And I hold it in the dark so you're not afraid You've got a family that loves you, let's shuffle through some names Daddy's dad used to fly across the country for his games We are special, the three of us are bonded by the James He's a fighter, he taught me how to rally through the pain Then there's Grandma, she taught me what to look for in a mom And when I speak of love she's the one I'm speaking on She's the glue, the gravity of love is something strong And the love I share with you is an extension of her arm Then you have your great grandparents always on the go Papa likes to play it cool but loves harder than you know Grandma T leads with her love so you always feel at home Grandma C she will do anything so you don't feel alone There's Ryan and there's Louis, your auntie and your uncle Then there's aunties and your uncles, our family's a jungle But we love each other dearly, a family, a crew And every piece of them is a little piece of you So many things I could think about to say Since December 3rd I think about them every day I just wanna be the father you look up to as you age Be the person that I tell you you should emulate I look into your eyes and the feeling it is strange Never thought that I could love somebody so much in a day Hold your hand and my heart it gives way And I hold it in the dark so you're not afraid There was an anger in this world son the year that you were born It was full of different turmoil, everyone was torn As a father it was hard to see the hate amongst Americans I hope when you grow up they'll see the value in your heritage I hope when you grow up that we'll be done with all this ignorance And that you won't be judged 'cause you look a little different If you are I hope you'll find the strength to fight indifference I'll educate you so that you can make your point deliberate This also was the year of journey, me and mom again But this journey has a purpose, we're looking toward the end I just want the conversations that you're having with your friends To be filled with memories that you and I and mom have spent So anything you need no matter how old don't forget We will always be here for you when you need us to protect We will always be here for you through the failures and success That's my promise to you 'til my final breath