I Lose

She invited me to a pity party Every hour everyone was making fun of me I told her it really didn’t matter You can’t imagine what it’s done to my personality I don’t know where she should go, but I lose Though I tried, like a lullaby, I lose Once I saw her in a crazy dream She was laughing, I looked the other way Then I find that she unwinds, she puts me down behind my back Everyone seems to have a love but me, it’s what I lack I’ve been denied the hurt inside, I lose Though she was barely a friend of mine, I lose I got left out of the “in” crowd They speak as if I was there They say the cruelest things, I seen their type A bunch of buttwipes that rule Don’t make sense, it’s really strange, I lose Though I try, there’s no sense giving up, I lose I walk the second mile, there’s no one there, I lose I pick up the pieces of my broken dream, I lose Everyone had their fun, I lose Yet she was a one of them from the beginning How am I to carry on, there’s no help given Then I realize it’s all reoccurrence What they’re thinking, their mind is a blur I seen the future, and I ain’t even there, I lose I see it all, and it’s really, the same old thing, I lose They think they’re smart, all huddled together, I lose One more time, I try to make it, I lose I lose, I lose Tell me about it, darlin’, now