Surprise!

[Verse 1] Once the gatekeepers decided We would fade into the crowd You took what makes you charming And you turned it up too loud Now how many songs does the band have to get through Before you steal away the mic? How many cakes do you have to jump out of Before no one yells "surprise"? [Verse 2] I remember us both learning That no one's dreams come true They're either not quite how you saw them Or the goalpost just gets moved That's when you changed your expectations And started rolling your third eye But you still don't know the ending You can't spoil the surprise [Verse 3] And now the nature of your birthday parties Changed a lot for me What was once a celebration Feels like a shameless victory I guess we all confuse our happiness With what it takes to just survive But the moment that the switch gets flipped Is always a surprise [Verse 4] There's a little bit of poetry In what you're doing to your face Removing all the evidence Of our shared time and space But your eyes close when you smile now Because you're squeezing it too tight If this is how you double down You're in for a surprise [Verse 5] There's a nightclub deep in Hollywood For each night of the week Watching all my fake friends congregate Where no one wants to be But you have to muddle through it If you wanna make it out alive And the ones that find the other side Are in for a surprise [Instrumental Break] [Outro] No, I'm not letting myself off easy here I've been going through it too I might've leaned into things more gracefully But what good did that do? You found your way to rage Against the dying of the light I thought I planned for all contingencies I thought I knew who I was meant to be All those roads laid out in front of me But it's still a big surprise