Flashbacks

[Intro: Deante’ Hitchcock] Bad bitch, wild shit Just wake up and boom bap Just fucked up Aight Yeah-yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah Ayy, ooh, yeah [Verse 1: Deante’ Hitchcock] Flashbacks to that laundromat with my momma I was young and wildin' out, unaware of the coming karma They say the first child should pay for the sins of the father So I bought 'em out tomorrow and said "fuck it" Look, uh Tell Nick I'm sorry, I had to do what I couldn't take If I don't kill 'em, I'm sorry shawty, we ain't gon' make it Girl I done seen my lowest lows, I mean low as the basement Tryna reflect without usin' a mirror 'cause I'm too scared to face it What am I chasin' and will it fulfill me once I catch it? I need some straightforward answers 'cause I been livin' backwards Can't feel the pastor when he talk about upcomin' rapture Preachin' money's the root of all evil but ask for money after So comin' up we ain't have it to give but we still gave it The church was makin' a killin' of our lil' savings But you can't put a price on faith, that's how my momma phrased it But mom if this house of the Lord, then how can we not appraise it? I was young and confused, with nothin' to lose Better to be human than God, word to Langston Hughes Ironic when your brain start to spark, they try and defuse But my nigga the only choice that we have in life is to choose, so I'm choosin' I got a homegirl convinced that everything we see is tricks and this life is just an illusion Some days I entertain it, I know that thinkin' is dangerous Just be feelin' like it's so much more, it's hard to explain it But I do believe in God and it's odd but I know that even when I'm strayin' far away from my path There's a reason there you have it Word to my boy from TDE, that I met in them sessions This is the Revenge of the Dreamer I seen a rose grow from out of that concrete, yeah right there, up my block Right on the corner where DeVonte got shot And then it hit me One day eventually things'll change and maybe somethin' beautiful can rise and thrive from all that pain, so RIP [Verse 2: Miguel, St. Beauty & Both] I'm sure as a sigil That I believe It's hard to believe in anything With all that I've been through All that I've seen Can't just believe in anything Much to my surprise I'm old enough to know I can't do anything on my own So, I believe in God I've cried enough to know I'm trying every day to hold on (Hold on) [Bridge: Miguel] No one Ever gonna do it for you (Quite like) Quite like you (Quite like) Quite like you No one Ever gonna do it for you (Quite like) Quite like you (Quite like) Quite like you That's why it's hard to put my faith in anyone else So I don't put my faith in nobody else Though I know that we all need some help Me too [Bridge] Brr Brr Is any of that true, yeah Uh Ayy, uh, ayy [Outro: Deante' Hitchcock] I know I ain't been all that you expect from me (Ayy) Still talkin' to God I been so lost, so low, I need you desperately Still talkin' to God I swear, I heard them say the truth will set you free Still talkin' to God If there's one thing I learned, I can't be nothin' else but me Still talkin' to God