My Adulthood

I've been living like a child all my adulthood Waiting for a man to take my place There's a river of denial runs through my adulthood I don't know who owns this face I've wasted every day of my adulthood I've spilled it on the ground like rain I don't know when this became my adulthood Since I refused to change a thing My adulthood is just a name I took From the other adults that I saw And little did I know, nobody ever grows They just pretend that it's all like before I'm way past the salad days of my adulthood Not even mirrored shades can hide that truth I thought I'd run away from my adulthood Sincе I escaped the cagе of my youth My adulthood is a masquerade I took From the other adults that I knew And little did I know, nobody ever grows They just carry on as children do Like I've carried all my adulthood This thing I had to do Suspend my adulthood, so every day I could Be free from you