Volatile

I'm volatile But at the same time I'm fragile as fuck My momma told me My experiences and my bad luck Will be the reason I succeed Be the reason I see A million other lonely people Feelin just like me Inside a world of such turmoil And hate and greed I'm going crazy in my room Wondering how I should be Wondering how I could breathe Slip away in a dream Try my best to escape This same reality I wanna play barbies in my room Wanna play barbies like a kid Wanna get lost in my own fantasy And never ever quit, no Never ever end the game Never ever be the same Never ever succumb to The reality of pain I had this dream That guaranteed that I Would never die Because they've been playing my music While I'm up in the sky But the pressure to succeed Always eats me alive And the pressure to believe In myself all the time is too much There's a monster And she's looking at me Getting closer I can finally see The self hatred My worst enemy This is what you wanted baby I'm volatile But at the same time I'm fragile as fuck It doesn't come down to talent It only comes down to luck It's more about who you know More about who you fuck Less about what you sing And more about who you suck 'Cause there's an army Of women that I need to inspire I need to travel the world I need to set it on fire With the lyrics that feel So very real to me Connect with a generation That's so desperately in need Of a voice, of a girl Who's gonna say it for real No sugar coating the shit To make it have more appeal No sugar coating the shit To make it fly off the shelf It's not about pleasing the people It's more about liking myself But Mr. Industry says He's got no space in his lane 'Cause mr. industry thinks that Every woman's the same Pit the women against Other women for fun And convince us that the crown Was only meant for one I had this Big - wig - who's - this Pointy shoes, suck my dick Dude from the industry say My song's just weren't it Dude you're old Just retire and go You're not my demographic bitch You're a fuckin dinosaur There's a monster And she's looking at me Getting closer I can finally see The self hatred My worst enemy This is what you wanted baby There's a monster And she's looking at me Getting closer I can finally see The self hatred My worst enemy This is what you wanted baby Momma told me I was special Momma said when I was young Momma said I could Have everything If I kept on pushing on Only had to keep it up Never let them put me down All these people That doubted me Looking pretty stupid now I don't want riches and fame I truly wanna make a change I wanna channel my anger I wanna channel the rage I have this power in me This dedication and drive I've been down on my knees 'Til I respawn and revive And I'm back in the ring Another blow to the side Another hit in the head They wanna kill me and tried They wanna watch me give up I sometimes feel like I could But then my momma Reminds me Why I never ever should