Family Tree

I don't know what my family tree is Only thing connect us gotta be Jesus I mean, people don't believe in Jesus Niggas do even though we never seen him I know it's something bigger 'cause he made me June 27th, Monique delivered a baby to a kid named De'Wayne Gave me the same name without the JR She wasn't playing no games That's no disrespect to my father in that bar No matter what I heard 'em say, you been a star Nana use to tell me about you I don't wanna live my life without you Growing up, I wanted to be just like you Papa was hard, papa could fight Papa fuck ya bitch all night, yeah Papa had respect on the corner And his papa rolled with the crips in California Now when I walk past the mirror, it's starting to make a little sense to me Everything I'm becoming, it ain't nothing new Ain't saying that I'm proud of it, it's the fucking truth Ever since the youth, I had guidance, seen violence All in a day when you different at school, hearing whispers Like is he gay? What? Fuck this nigga say I throw my headphones on and forget about all the rain 'cause My family of trees, it grows deep inside of me One time for the ones who lost they way Four hundred years in these chains, still can't escape Even the ones that we love, they cannot stay Afraid to help, so we pray, so we pray, Lord I never meant to upset you Know I didn't become everything that I promised Excuse ya son for blowing his nose in this tissue It's not 'cause ya son got sinus problems Growing up, we never talked about the problems How my white friends, they was yelling at they mama The truth at our household beneath the ground floor If I felt a certain way, I had to try and hide it With all of us that go, Nique, Harm, Dray, Nell, Lo, Day Young Ken, I promise it's not a day Y'all don't cross my mind, I travel via the train with my pockets Just as broke as the day that I fucking came I throw my headphones on, the clouds in L.A.  Gray as ever, I feel the rain But it was too hard to make the phone call, it felt so cathartic Just writing it on the page, listen My family of trees, it grows deep inside of me One time for the ones who lost they way Four hundred years in these chains, still can't escape Even the ones that we love, they cannot stay Afraid to help, so we pray, so we pray, Lord My family of trees, it grows deep inside of me One time for the ones who lost they way Four hundred years in these chains, still can't escape Even the ones that we love, they cannot stay Afraid to help, so we pray, so we pray, Lord