4 Lbs

[Verse 1] Huh Let me talk how I would talk to myself The key to the lock at the top of the shelf Leads to what's lost in the dark in the depths The smell of garlic and death Awkwardly step and the farther I get The more I pray, the holy father forgives me 'Cause when it's in me, it's in me I envy the pennies that's kept in the jar The sign of patience, comfortability I'm far from it all I tossed in the yard It cost me an arm, I saved you one so I could write you this song I hope you like it like I like being wrong When I'm too perfect, I'm nervous I know the right answers, I say it on purpose My whole life has been a test, I bubble "C" when I'm guessin' You can see when I'm stressin' Mind went blank since seen black DVD's on the dresser Never the same Wasn't to blame I hope you know it If I could go back in time, I'd throw it, so heroic But this not a Disney movie, mistakes, must live through it When stakes this high, the knife can't cut through it Just four pounds of pressure'll do it, yeah [Break] Let me talk how I would talk to myself Yeah [Verse 2] Let me talk how I be talking alone Can a house be a home when there's nobody home? Amount that was blown didn't account for all the counseling, clothes Covered the doubt and insecurities of fully grown men Now pull him on in We got him in the cycle of sin See, life doesn't end After you're detached from the flesh Grand rising again Not enlightened, then you'll try it again More likely to win This time, your anxiety's here To help you navigate through all the wicked hiding within But I'm not one preach Ask me what I see when I sleep Alarm clock saved me more than the preacher I'm just absorbing and pouring more than they gave me 'Cause I'm more for the people Than the ones in suits, the corporate people When they're informing, it's lethal The shit that they be sayin', it seep through Misery loves company, me too Where the fuck does that leave me? So now, I'm the one that feeling uneasy I'm the one that's hurting people that's need me With four pounds of pressure [Break] Yeah Let me talk how I would talk to myself Uh [Verse 3] Let me talk how I would talk when I'm talkin' 'bout death Am I afraid of him? No We sat down and had a few, but I made him pay for him own And I toasted to life Eye contact was holding me tight And then he smirked and gave a look I didn't like As though tonight was the night First thought, okay, call on the Lord Last time I called, he didn't answer before So with these hands, I'ma do it I'm not a fighter but I balled up my fist Before I striked him, heard a voice in the distance Told me with poise to resist it Instantly I came more to my senses Some sort of post-nut clarity vision I felt a very religious relief Come across me crossing the street Looked to my left, I seen death, and to my right, I seen Grief A head-on collision Or is it just a lesson to learn? Hope God's tryna test me 'for he bless me, stressin' my nerves My chest grew a burn It soon became harder to breathe I fall to my knees I looked and all I saw was the reaper He started repeating A quote that told me I was the reason It reminded me the finger that squeezed it Four pounds of pressure [Outro] Let me talk how I would talk to myself