18 Cigarettes

[Verse 1] Rolling in and out of phase When the shaking starts Walking backwards towards the cape Twenty yards Smoking eighteen cigarettes Giving two away Thinking smugly, "How does anyone smoke a pack a day?" Pressed up against over the line And everyone is being polite Another half a bottle of wine Lock and key [Chorus] I wanted things to stay How they would not stay I'd ask you to explain But it's not your problem Oh, I've been in a state And you don't relate I wish that I could say Where it got me But it's not me [Verse 2] Still just barely off the train Central station Subtle attempt to check reflection In shop window Barely fifteen miles away Gilded portico Above which imagined life Daily rolls Resting idle finger on blade Contemplating messes made Reflexive self-regard overlaid Lock and key [Chorus] I wanted things to stay How they would not stay I'd ask you to explain But it's not your problem Oh, I've been in a state And you don't relate I wish that I could say Where it got me But it's not me