.smile

[Intro] Smile [Verse 1] When I draw myself in pictures, I draw my smile upside down Because I can't recognize myself if i don't frown So if I go down, I'm at peace cause I didn't know what I know now Just so I don't drown Living life is like a chore I don't wanna be that person in the mirror anymore Who is he? I hate him Wouldn't date him I don't recognize him And yet, for some reason, I despise him Is it really surprising? I'm going through the motions Floating with my back towards the ocean Broken And yet, I feel chosen And yet, I'm still hoping that she'll be coming back Because that door is slowly closing For so long it's been open I traded her for vanity Every fucking thought is just a seed for my insanity I never fabricate because it's never been my style But in front of the cameras, I can't let them see denial The pain of every smile [Pre-Chorus] So smile, if you can Cause even if it's fake and I'm in denial For you, I'd be happy to die with a smile [Chorus] Ooh, in this darkness Please light my way Light my way [Verse 2} They love your smile, unaware that it's a strain It's a curse I have to live with after causing so much pain They don't know it's a facade, and I'm the one to blame Just a lie that temporarily shields me from the rain I know it sounds insane, but trust For my outside life, a happy face is a must And I know it sounds pretty asinine, so it doesn't matter what I say Sometimes I have to fake it just to make it through the day I walk in crowds with my head held high It takes all of my fucking energy to sell that lie Cause in private, I walk around with my head held down Eyes to the ground Hidden from the media hounds I have to lie to myself every time someone meets me And say that I'm okay every time that they greet me Cause the pain is so goddamn deep, it leaves a bruise I may wear a smile, but it's a mask, I'm Tom Cruise [Pre-Chorus] So smile, if you can Cause even if it's fake and I'm in denial For you, I'd be happy to die with a smile [Chorus] Ooh, in this darkness Please light my way Light my way [Verse 3] Inside I struggle with the Batman and the Joker I know what I did, and I know what side is closer I know what you are thinking, and what you think I should say Do I regret my decision? Every goddamn day So this black man pays for the sins of his faults Watch him sign over his soul, as it turns into salt And watch him cope with that decision using whiskey and denial When he starts to see the light, then he finally can smile [Outro} Ooh, in this darkness Please light my way Please light my way Light my way