Funeral

The guilt, it cuts like a knife Memories eat up my mind The boys I've buried alive Hate me, break me, cut me up, erase me I let you paint me the villain Wrap up your love like a ribbon On my knees to be forgiven Hate me, blame me, spill my guts, replace me After all this time, I'm haunted by your ghost Centuries of runnin' from the catacombs Coverin' my ears when I hear the phone like, na, na, na I kinda wanna laugh at the way I cried I've been putting on a smile though somebody died, oh I don't know how to act to pretend it's fine I'm so happy at this funeral, thi-this funeral I really don't wanna hear it (shh) I'm sorry burns like it's searing My last nerve just hit the ceiling I'm so numb After all this time, I can't escape the ghosts Centuries of runnin' in these catacombs I knew I wasn't just hurtin' me the most, oh, na, na, na I kinda wanna laugh at the way I cried I've been putting on a smile though somebody died, oh I don't know how to act to pretend it's fine I'm so happy at this funeral, thi-this funeral (I kinda wanna la-la-la-laugh) (I've been putting on a smi-smi-smi-smile) (I don't know how to act, act, act, act) (So happy at this funeral, thi-this funeral) Here lies the girl, clinging to her own self-sabotage Heart too big, teeth too sharp To be honest from the start Now tell the world how she made you fucking miserable Kissed your neck, broke your bones 'Cause she had to be alone ('cause she had to be alone) I kinda wanna laugh at the way I cried I've been putting on a smile though somebody died, oh I don't know how to act to pretend it's fine I'm so happy at this funeral, thi-this funeral (I kinda wanna la-la-la-laugh) (I've been putting on a smi-smi-smi-smile) (I don't know how to act, act, act, act) (So happy at this funeral, thi-this funeral)