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[Intro] Oh-oh, oh Oh, oh-oh, oh Oh-oh, oh, oh, oh [Verse] Tried to move out, but it just sucked I guess I ain't really think I was better off Tryna get this off my chest I carry twin cannons like I'm Agent Bunny Hat (Fuck) Man, what the fuck? (Ah-ah, ah-ah-ah) Oh, I'm trying I'm trying, ah-ah, fuck I don't even know what I'm saying Bitch, you know we up (Fuck) Bitch, you know me (Fuck, damn, damn) Ah-ah, man, listen I'ma just go off the top, I'ma just go off the fuckin' top, man, I don't care (Ah, damn, alright, shit) Alright, huh (Fuck) I'm in the crib, I'm jelqmaxxing, I'ma stretch to the max (Hahaha) Oh-ah, oh-oh, fuck it I'ma keep going, man, I'ma keep going 'til they ban me I don't give a fuck 'bout that shit, man I was in Atlanta with John and we was whippin' the pot, we was tryna keep it cool We was, man, tryna make these bands, man, tryna make this money, man, I'on give a fuck It was me and batsponge two-deep in a fuckin' Rover (Man, lemme talk my talk) They tryna bite the hand that fed, people askin' for some Dante Red What about me? I don't give a fuck about that, bitch (Fuck) I'm in the crib, I'm jelqmaxxing, stretch it to the max I'ma run it back, that's a fact, man (Fuck) What about the house we built? I know I got a negative canthal tilt, but, baby (Fuck) That's right I just wanna make my amends, I just wanna make my bands I just wanna stack my bread, I just wanna make my ends I just wanna, oh, I just wanna, woah I just wanna, oh-oh, oh (Fuck) Y'all remember back then, we would watch Myth, we would watch Ninja We was in, like, sophomore year, we did not know, we didn't even know what the fuck we wanted to do, man We just, we was just smokin' out of tin cans (Haha) And we was smokin' out of Mountain Dew cans and had no plans, we just We just wanna get high as we can, fuck around , get scammed, pay like eighty for a gram, damn, fuck What the fuck you know 'bout that? We was in Connecticut, just tryna smoke gas, upper classman sold me some straight ass Osmiqo with the ten gifted, ah, thank you for the gifted subs, man (Ah-ah, ah-ah, fuck) Man, thank you for the ten gifted, but I don't really give a fuck Fuck around and I might, I might have pull up on 'em and gift 'em my sub, man, I don't give a—, ugh This is off the dome, this is real shit man, this is, ugh Got a few—, couple people back home wanna see me die I kick it with CG5, man, nah, lemme run that back, I said this Couple people wanna see me die, I stayed there, kicked with CG5, fuck It was me and batsponge, two deep in the sea with like two guns, yeah It was me and brakence tryna crush the damn Perc 'fore the day ends, oh, man, fuck Listen, you wan' eat dinner with us, you don't know what happened If the music don't work, I'ma— If the music don't work, I'ma end up trappin' I ain't gon' sell work, I'ma— (Man, listen, bro, they not listening, man) I ain't gon' sell work, I'ma sell shit to Gavin They be like, "Who the fuck Gavin?" Oh, who the fuck Gavin? Man, Gavin is my man with the plan, then I caught him by a van, give him thirty of them grams and he made somethin' shake I know I'm ericdoa, but I'm prayin' for a break, every day's just another headache, and I just— Fuck I just wanna get right, I wanna get right I just wanna get right Damn On a runway, still the plane sits Can't kill myself 'cause of GTA VI, in-game In-game, oh I can't do it yet, I got people barely comin' for my neck, but they don know We did this from the jump we been here since the— We been here since the jump, but baby, do I deserve it? Do I deserve it? Oh-oh, I deserve it (Oh-oh) I went home last month Walked inside the crib, like, "What it do, ma?" Went downtown, saw a jit playin' shit out the speaker, Peso Pluma I'm like, "Can you turn it down?" "I fuck with Peso Pluma, but I'm tryna buy something for my mom 'cause you know it's Christmas" That jit had the Trues on, that jit, he had the Trues on He's saggin' on the Trues, yeah My son, he had the Trues on, my son, he had the Trues on (Fuck) It's hot as fuck in this room What I do, I do this for you, oh-oh, oh-oh When Eric came, that's when hip-hop died Bitch, I'm ericdoa, I can't do no TikTok Live Walked inside the spot, I show 'em how TikTok died Man, this is real music, I could really show you how to do it Man, you not listening, y'all not fuckin' listening (Oh-oh, oh, oh) (Man, fuck it, they think I can't, they think I can't do a hook, I'll come up with some shit right now) I'll come up with something sick right now I'll come up with something sick now (Oh-oh, man, fuck) So, before you leave me, could you let me down easy? Before you leave me, oh-oh, oh So, before you leave me, could you let me down easy, my love? Come on You know I had a team with me, shit been the same since they freed my girl Ginseng I keep two on me, man, like (Listen) Fuck I remember back in middle school The teachers saw my last name and assumed that I couldn't speak English I was like, "Bitch, what the fuck does that mean?" I'm obviously speaking to you in English, I don't get it So they put me in like reading classes Said I couldn't read, bitch, 'cause I had some glasses How the fuck that make any sense? (Ooh, oh) They said I had the reading level of a damn toddler But I was reading Percy Jackson, what had happened? Man, come on, what the hell? I was tryna get right I was tryna get right, I was tryna get right, man I was reading Percy Jackson as a jit, man How that make some sense, man? I was like a, I had other kids in my class, couldn't spell the word Couldn't spell the word "business," like the word "business" It ain't got that, too many letters in it, but they couldn't spell that, man But listen, man, at least I'm not an iPad kid, an iPad kid I'm a grown man, I pay bills and I got a crib and a girlfriend I was out makin' damn cash, you was in crib, watching "Try Not to Laugh" Come on, lemme just talk my talk, man, fuck Why you don't understand this pain? We was in the crib watchin' Pokimane Wait, hold on, fuck, we was in the crib watchin' Pokimane I'm a Tier 3 sub, man, if you ask me, I don't give a fuck I'm not one of these Twitch streamers, man And I'm just tryna get right, I'm just tryna get right I'm just tryna get right, I'm just tryna get right We was watchin' Pokimane, tryna get right mane, but With batsponge in the chat, you can change the game to music, music, to music Where the fuck Sponge? Where the fuck Sponge? (Yeah) I'ma stop when they fuckin' ban me, man, where was you at? We was on Modern Warfare 2 on Terminal with the We had the M9 with the TEC-9, with the TEC-9 With the TEC-9, oh, oh-oh, oh We was hitting Billcams, baby What you know about them Billcams? I used to, like, sit inside the crib, and Play like Call of Duty for like nine hours with some grown ass men who was saying the craziest things in my ears, man Was a terrible experience, I guarantee That's some brain damage, that's some trauma 'Cause they don't understand when you all up in the crib And you got no friends, that you gotta, you gotta turn to the box and just hit a couple sides just to Just to feel like you have someone, just to feel like you got someone They telling me I'm yapping Anybody who say the word "yapping," you gotta be like fourteen years old With the fucking, shit just get me mad as fuck, 'cause, like, a man can't talk no more without no goddamn '04 hopping under his post, like, "Sir Yap-a-Lot" Like, bitch, I've been paying bills since you've been born, so why the fuck you on my shit, man? Man can't talk his talk no more, go do your summer math packet Instead of tellin' me some bullshit They tryna say, "ericdoa the funniest artist out" Bitch, this is not a joke, this is, this is real life, this is real life They prolly gon' post this on Dexerto On one of them stupid ass Twitter pages, man I just got, I just got something to say about that man They gon' say, "Oh my God, look at him, he's tryna, he's tryna cater to women on the internet because, because he just wants to look like a, like a better man than everybody and be on his moral high ground" But I don't fuck with Dexerto Motherfucker be posting too much about women and it kinda makes me uncomfortable Because, like, it's one of those situations if one of my mans be just harassing women on the internet that are not tryna do nothin' They just tryna breathe, they just tryna be in the same space as their other, male counterpart, but It's just lame as, it's lame as hell Like, why the fuck RapTV exist? If I ever meet RapTV, we, we, we might just have to, oh, we might just have to shoot this shit, oh Thirty seconds She said, "Eric, it's like nine o'clock, why you leaving?" Bitch, you ain't know I was Puerto Rican? I can't stay longer than the weekend, I My abuelo died like three years ago I'm gonna be serious for like one second, if y'all don't mind My abuelo died like three years ago from fucking COVID He don't even know that his, he don't even know that his grandson made it 'Cause I used to, I used to tell him that I, I wanted That man got me my first guitar He saw me when, bro That man got me my first guitar And I, now when I'm traveling I can't even tell you where we are I made this shit my time, yeah, I made this shit my life I just wish that I could see his ass one more time I ain't gonna cry on the live stream, I'm a Man, I'm a, I ain't gonna cry on the live stream, I'm a grown man I got, I got Imagine if Ninja got a low taper fade Imagine if Ninja got a low taper fade Man, I'm sorry to get serious on y'all like that I just had to talk my shit And I don't even know about this, I just This is what I wanna do for the rest of my life But I get confused and I get left behind I don't (Fuck) I don't wanna, I don't wanna make no IG Reels I don't wanna make no TikTok shit, I just wanna I just wanna be a fucking person, make a song for you and do a little fucking dance or something, I don't even Just wanna be myself, I mean, all my life, I wanna be myself, but the Everybody wanna talk about a label, but I can drop my own music Everybody draw conclusions, they don't know that I can To be honest, don't know if I know it, if I can do this This shit get real, that's why I wanna be a popstar or a man, real spill They used to think that I was a person to get the best of Now I drink three-hundred champagne, man, nah, fuck that But I was someone that they could get the best of Six-hundred dollar champagne, I'm with Zetra and the Think that I was really someone, get the best of Six-hundred dollar champagne, I'm with Zetra Yeah, I fuck around, I pull up to the jet club And now I'm (Fuck) They used to treat me like a little boy But who's inside the background, posted with me, boy? The Kid LAROI (Fuck) We would hit Pastaio and just fuck around, get a little pasta, fuck around, go somewhere else, fuck around, go back to the crib Can't even I just wanna be happy, man, but it's like You fuck around and get reanimated on the internet And now you have, like, two different existences that you have, one real life and one fake, and You gotta worry about both 'cause if you, if you die in real life, well, you're dead and you don't gotta care about the other one, but If you die in the other way, no one gon' remember you or care or anything that you ever made And your art was useless and it was, there was no point I need to stop caring 'bout Fantano 'cause Shit, that isn't the point You know, he's a, he's a grown man with his own opinions and I'm a grown man, just tryna make these millions, I don't— If he saw this damn stream, he'd be like, "What the fuck?" "I fuck with him 'cause he's from Connecticut, but, like, what is he doing?" Hot as shit inside that room, I bet he got the puffer on him, he got the— He got the cargos on, he got the cargos on Damn, I just burped in the mic Man, oh-oh, oh They out here talkin' 'bout some monthly listeners I hate to break it to you, that shit don't matter at all I don't understand why people can't just listen to the music that they listen to, like Without, fucking, like, projecting that shit on a—, I'on know, bro This shit don't even matter 'Cause everybody's fye in they own way, oh-oh (Like) I'm just tryna—, I'm just tryna have fun, do what I love while also tryna be funny and make people laugh I'm tryna do this for my, for my parents and for my sister and for my And for my, for my abuela that's still alive and my, and my other abuela that's still alive and my And my cousins back home and my, my cousins in the military, and You know, but we, we, we ain't really get no choice 'cause we're, you know, we're predisposed, and We're in a plate where the caucus grows, and If you're Hispanic in that area, you either work at a Jiffy Lube, or You sell rock to them skinny dudes, or I don't wanna get on here and start, you know, getting political Even though I get political all the time 'cause that's my goddamn right I just, like— I'ma keep going, I'ma keep going Can't believe Chris said I'm hungry, oh-oh, oh Ain't you eat, like, everything? You ate everything in the fridge, oh-oh, woah-oh You ate like everything, you ate everything in the fridge I'ma fuckin' ball like a free throw, Punks' nickname, "gordito," yeah, I don't give a— He tellin' me to diss reef, but he's like the only one that I've fucking seen in a while that Got, like, some intrinsic talent inside his body, like— I'm really proud of that kid, man, staying out of trouble, tryna make music You know, he's just tryna get by and do the same thing as all of us, man, I just— I wish I could give a piece of everything that I've done for myself and just give it to the— In the end, do I deserve this? Do I deserve this? Oh I'ma talk about some real shit real quick The day I made "sheaskedmewhati—" The day I made "sheaskedmewhatmylifewaslike," the night before, I sat inside my room and I smoked a cigarette and I That's the first time I wanted to pop my bottle in my That's the first time I wanted to pop my bottle, real shit, 'cause I was Had a conversation with my mom, she said, "If the music shit wrong, then you gotta come home, go to—" I ain't wanna come home, I didn't wanna go to college, I ain't— I ain't wanna do that shit, oh, didn't wanna do that I ain't mean to get vulnerable in front of a bunch of fucking strangers, I ain't even check the view count, but, like I was eighteen, in my room, sitting crisscross, tryna pop my shit, but I missed, ah I'm just in my room and I'm pissed off, twenty-one, I ain't get the— I ain't get this shit off yet, I ain't get this shit off yet This is coming off the chest, I got two foreign Mex— You know what I was gonna say, but I don't wanna get banned, fuck, man I'm just tryna get right, get right Because I was dancing with somebody, please never remind me One point in my life, I ever wanted you by me What the fuck they know about that song? What the fuck they know about that song? I was three deep, me and fuckin' John, fuckin' Zetra, making hella songs, tryna— Know you didn't want that, but I just wanted to explain, I just wanted to explain Oh, I just wanna—, ah (Fuck) I just wanted to explain, oh-oh, oh (Oh) He sayin' this is prerecorded, this ain't prerecorded, I'm just like this, I got problems If you got problems with me, we could solve 'em Everybody gonna—, fuck Everybody gon' see me and post this video on goddamn every social media and be like "Oh, he think he funny, he sat here saying a bunch of bullshit for the past forty minutes" They don't—, they don't know what it—, they don't know what I'm on, they don't They don't understand that this is deeper than all that Like, how he get this far? Last week, I had a Last week, I had a dream that all my music isn't art That this some Disney Channel shit, maybe the guy with the Carti profile pic is right Maybe I should end my life He sayin', "Nobody listen to that damn shit, we just waitin' for Music" And he's probably right, right, right, oh-oh, right My manager told me I gotta, I gotta stop being negative But it's kinda hard not to, but I'm just tryna change it, I just wanna be a better person, I just I just wanna be a better person, I just wanna feel like I deserve this Wanna feel like I deserve this, oh, my fucking voice broke I'm gonna, I'm gonna, I'm gonna, I'm 'bout to— I'm 'bout to, I'm 'bout to, I'm 'bout to blow, oh I'm 'bout to blow, oh-oh, oh Man, ooh, stroke that shit, you better stroke that shit Ooh, stroke that shit, you better stroke that shit I'm 'boutta beat my shit, stroke Pullin' it fast, doing it slow Dreamybull, I'm 'boutta blow Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh, oh-oh-oh-oh, oh Oh-oh, oh They're, like, askin' me, "Eric, why the fuck you make songs 'bout masturbation?" I said, "Why the fuck you dudes ain't got patience?" I'm just I'm just tryna be my damn self, man, oh-oh-oh-oh I'm just tryna be myself, man, I'm just tryna be myself, oh Every, everybody tryna, tryna be a mysterious motherfucker, wear all black with, post on Instagram, fit pics, and do everything Like, bitch, you weren't watching Yogscast back in the day, you are not him You were watching IHasCupquake, we know that I'm not coming for nobody, I'm just saying, the people that do that, shit, they do that shit, for real You work at Verizon, why the fuck you got Balenciaga on, man, the fuck? You was watching Minecraft Oasis You better switch those Bulldozers to some Asics 'cause Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh Ain't nobody talkin' 'bout you, Punks Can we get a mod to un-mod him to make him shut the fuck up? And in the end, it was just me and batsponge, two deep in the cut with them big guns, oh Oh-oh, oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh I'm an actor, it's the play's fault Posted up with fuckin' ericdoaVault Man, he kept my career alive, he kept my career alive If I didn't get the VALORANT song, then the whole damn shit would've gone wrong Whole damn shit would've gone wrong, I'm just tryna I'm just tryna make some M's off some damn songs, but They want me to make some damn TikTok trend, I don't want no IG Reel Bro, this isn't me If my career die and I can't grow shit, give everything I— I'm in this bitch, just trying not to crack, I'm just trying not to crack How the fuck you gon' stroke your shit to this, to this serious ass stream? I'm just tryna get right and you tryna cream Man, what the—? I got some freak ass viewers, man Why the fuck I even do this? Man, I'm tryna make art and I, and I got some dude in my damn chat, tryna Man, what the fuck wrong with y'all, man? Man, oh-oh, oh Man, batsponge, go ahead and ban everybody talkin' 'bout busting or edging or something, oh-oh What you don't know is that this is my favorite thing to do in the world I wish I could do shows for twenty-four hours so I could just sit here and get everything off my mind Y'all don't understand, man, this is just the same shit that goes on every fuckin', uh We was in the crib, watchin', say it with me chat 2022, we was, we was watchin' Pokimane, we was watchin' Pokimane I remember way back in Atlanta, I met 6 Dogs for the first time He came to my crib and we shot the shit, talkin' 'bout some— We played MW2 and we walked around and I told everything about his He told everything about his damn problems and I tried to find a way to solve 'em And I told him 'bout my problems and he gave me advice, he showed me He showed me guided meditation, who knew it'd save my life? I remember that night, got a text— I remember, it was in the morning, I was on my phone, I was on a meeting, and John, John came in the room, told me that he I wish I could've seen him, but my fucking car sucked, I don't even stop at Starbucks Only got to see him one time, only got to see him one time, what's the point, man? He was like my f—, he was like my fuckin' hero, I don't I wish I could go back, everything was easier But we can't go back I don't really understand how this shit turned to a therapy session I don't wanna trauma dump on none of my fans, none of my supporters, that shit isn't cool You gotta separate me from what I am and I'm a human at the end of the day, but I'm also ericdoa and I don't (Fuck, man) Motherfucker tell me that I'm yapping, goddamn first-time chatter can't support no one I bet you in the crib on your PC, playing games in the Discord, and And he made a goddamn, and he made a goddamn thousand dollars this month Oh, I get it, man, you live in a crib with your mom and your dad and your sister, she going to an Ivy League But you just in the crib, in your room, hit the pen 'cause you— (Hahaha) You hit the pen 'cause you can't do nothing else So you gonna come into my chat, projecting and saying crazy shit, man You're twenty-five, why do you still call it a penjamin? (Oh-oh) Oh-oh, oh, ah, no I ain't mean to flame you, but you came in my chat, tryna chill so I had to go crazy I been goin' for an hour, I got content for lightyears but I don't wanna think about it that way Man, why the fuck we always gotta think about content now? Whatever happened to just kickin' it with the bros and making stupid ass songs, but now it's all about, "Oh, I gotta post this damn TikTok, I gotta post this damn YouTube Short," what the fuck is a YouTube Short? I've been short since YouTube came out I don't give a fuck, man, you know what I'm about, I gotta Man, I'm like, I'm like 5'8 in the right shoes, I got white dudes always tellin' me that I'm a small fry, but I Why the fuck you gettin' on me? Why the fuck you gettin' on me? Like, "I ain't know ericdoa was that little," well, man, fuck y'all, man Man, I'm just a petite guy tryna get by, man, I'on give a Your bitch like me anyway 'Cause I can sing and I got glasses and I got curly hair and I can dress well and I I got beautiful eyebrows from my mama Lemme tell you 'bout my mama, y'all My mama, my mama work her fuckin' ass off She work her fuckin' ass off, man, and that's a beautiful woman, man Man, she just, she was tryna do the best she could And my dad tried to do the best he could too We was in Connecticut just on some bullshit, man, I was My mom is the first person in the family to go to college, my And my dad the first person to make more than, more than like fifty-thousand, and I'm the first person in my entire bloodline to touch more than a hundred-thousand, I You're not listening Do you know how it feels to be twenty-one and pay your sister's tuition? Fuck it, I'ma let it out now, I'ma f—, I'ma just let it out now, man I would do everything that I fucking could for my sister She taught me how to live right (Fuck, I'm sorry, fuck) Fuck it, I'ma just let it out (I'm actually crying, I'm sorry, at, at, cause at one point, it was a joke, but now it's not) My sister taught me how to live right and now Now I can take, I can take care of her and her kids and her kids' kids and her kids' kids now Who knew it'd go well? Feed my whole family off of cracked FL You're not listening, I fed my whole family off of cracked FL (Man, they gon' think I'm fuckin' cringe for this, bro) No matter whatever they say 'bout me Whatever they say 'bout me, I put food in they damn hand Finally became a man I can take my father's hand, told him Liam, I'd be so down to get food, but I'm in this bitch, goin' crazy And I got, like, tears running down my face and shit, I don't want you to see me like this I'm literally not kidding, I'm actually crying and I haven't cried in a long fucking time Damn I don't wanna be like that one video, like, where she was in the crowd and She was raising her hands and she was like, "It's okay, it's okay," bitch, its not okay No, it's not okay I just wanna be the last one standing, couple years ago, I would watch Hamlinz, now I Couple years ago, I used to watch Hamlinz, now I I never learned how to build, oh, I never learned how to build But I fuck with AsianJeff, man, when his grandma rotated in, that shit was Two-hundred, two-hundred, two-hundred Two-hundred, build me up, build me up, uh Build me up, build me up, oh-oh My emotions attatched, I ain't got no mats Two-hundred, two-hundred Man, you know who else I fuck with, man? I'ma just keep going, man Jynxzi, I fuck with Jynxzi heavy, man, you know He's just a young man tryna get bread, tryna do what he love, man On some sketch, man, he's just a funny ass dude, man, he just be Sitting on the game, playing Madden, oh I'm not gon' lie, what I'm 'boutta sing next is kinda crazy, but you remember way back then when— Matt Healy was all up in the goddamn news, talkin' about dating somebody I don't understand why they date him, but his people got L strokes, L strokes It's crazy how I could go from, I could go from laughing to, from crying to laughing and talking to y'all about how I love my sister so much And then I could talk about how British people got no strokes (Lemme stop) Do I love Jake, man? Liam, that's a good question I guess I fuck with him, nah, sike, nah, man, that man saved my life Showed me how to get right, showed me how to stack bread Showed me how to keep a fuckin' clear head 'cause this shit's not safe Every single day's not made, it's just— They tryna say that I'm scamming someone Tryna say that I'm scamming You tryna talk about Ash, man, I love that guy I just want that kid to be safe, I just want him to be the face I just want him to feel great everyday that he's here 'cause he knows he's special He's a great kid, he's just tryna get through the damn madness 'Cause ain't nobody give you a damn fuckin' playbook to this stupid ass, fuckin' music industry nuances and grown ass men Telling you that your shit is fye, you're up next and this is what's gonna happen And somehow you're still stuck in the same thing that you were Talking about numbers and shit Talking about yap shit, shit I didn't mean to rant on a fuckin' livestream and get shit off my chest, but this is the only way I know how Zetra can tell you, while I was setting up this light and this fog machine, I set the smoke detector off, like, five times I'ma keep going 'til there's nothing left Tryna be with the angels, that's why I got, "Divine," tatted on my chest If you don't believe me, it's right here And I got Zetra in my chat, tryna— And I got Zetra in my chat, tryna engagement farm Tryna engagement farm But it's okay 'cause that's my bro, I want him to have the same Man, they just tryna play me like I'm pussy like I can't sing And that everything is Auto-Tune and glitches and some hyperpop shit, yeah Just so you know, I wanna put this shit to bed once and for all, man I don't care what you call my music, man, you can call it hyperpop if you want Those were some good days of my life And I'm gonna remember them for like the, the rest of my life But I feel like people have a lot of opinions on the internet, and I would never take it away from the originators or the people who really invented it I would never do that, a chance that I would ever get in the world The sounds that you hear, the snares, the synths, the basses Give them their fucking credit They're all made by trans women Or trans individuals, or anyone in the LGBTQ+ community Shoutout SOPHIE, man, rest in peace Them snares were so fye I remember hearing every single song in one, one sitting that one night when I found her I remember I found Pop 2, and I had to look at every other fucking producer, A.G. Cook made my brain explode SOPHIE made my brain explode, umru made my brain explode I just wanted to be real, I wanted to get that off my chest 'cause I feel like a lot of people feel like we're encroaching an area That we're not supposed to be and take the credit of other people And I don't wanna do that at all, I just, I want everybody to be awesome and be friends and make music and shit, you know? I'm not tryna be a copout at all, or an engagement farm and say something that's gonna get people to like me, I promise This is just real, it's just raw shit, I just wanna talk, 'cause I can't fucking talk I end up ghosting every fucking— (You know what, lemme not, lemme not) Getting too personal so I'ma just vocalize So I'ma just vocalize Oh-oh-oh, oh, oh-oh-oh, oh Oh-oh-oh, oh, wait, I fucked that one up, lemme try it again Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh, oh my God Motherfuckers so right, shoutout Ice Spice I feel bad for her, but I, I'm so proud of her, man, it's just Everybody's so quick to switch and I love it because they realize when someone can get better at doing shit and I'm not gon' lie, I was hating at first and I'ma keep it a buck I was hating at first, but now I'm glad that she's up He tellin' me to hit the damn Quan Like I'ma emote for him or somethin' Man, what the fuck? Man what? There, you happy now? Are you happy now? Yeah Man, I hope nothin' I hope none' I said in this fuckin' stream is like a Thing that people think I'm just sayin' on purpose, I just I just wanna get shit out my fuckin' head I just wanna chill with the bros And I wanna go to Top Golf And I wanna go on tour with bixby, I love that kid, he's like a nephew to me That kid could write a fuckin' song, I swear to God I just wanna see him up I wanna see him do the same shit, wanna, see him buy his— I wanna see him buy his fuckin' parents cars and buy his sisters everything they ever wanted Buy 'em everything they ever wanted 'Cause I could buy my sister whatever the fuck she want Whatever she say, whatever she point at, I pick it up and I— I put that platinum card down 'Cause they ain't never think that I would get that back in my school, man Tryna put me in a fuckin reading room and tellin' me "Eric, you 'boutta be a senior in Algebra II" I'm like, "You damn right, damn right" I learned y=mx blee, fuck, blee Mx b for like, fuckin', like five years, like five years I even remember what that shit means I don't even wanna see a slope 'cause that mean we goin' downhill And I don't wanna go down I'ma keep it a buck though Every single person that I, that I, that I met in my life and Everybody else that has a, has a job or a trade or is In college and is, fuckin', fifty thousand dollars in debt or, or, or has a fuckin ' Or they're not doing anything and everything seems so fuckin empty and everything doesn't make sense cause Its just an endless hole in where Fed this God damn propaganda from everybody around us And all the old people ruined everything because they're old as fuck and And not because they're old, but— Because they didn't know that inflation and the housing market was gonna crash Then they got selfish with their own money and all the banks are dickheads, man So now we have to deal with existential, fuckin', weird ass dread Waking up and my mans who hands me coffee at the goddamn bodega hates his life 'Cause he just wants to do what he wanted to do He wanted to paint, he wanted to write a book, but He can't write no fuckin' book because God damn, go to Brooklyn, go to a brownstone and tell me if you see a Puerto Rican Or a Dominican in that bitch, man No, you won't You'll see a man from Greenwich or some crazy shit like that from fuckin' Iowa I shouldn't be hearin' Meghan Trainor when I go to Konashi I should be hearing "tempo" or "tempão" I don't really know 'cause I'm not Dominican and I really don't speak Spanish Yo me no sabo, but listen to me, man I should be hearing, goddamn, Bad Bunny blare out of a Honda Civic at 2 PM 'cause fuck yo' job Mama [?][1:23:11] fuckin' abuelito I'm ericdoa, soy yo And I can't even speak Spanish 'cause I grew up in the I grew up in the 'burbs with my mom and my sister, whitewashed, and I was out here saying, "Dude" (Haha) (Alright, I'm fucking buggin') I'm only gonna do this for like thirty more minutes because I'm like, I'm lowkey getting hysteria I just wanna say, shoutout Olivia Rodrigo, because, you know, she, she, she went like six-for-six and like seven-for-seven And I'm just tryna go one-for-one, one-for-one 'Cause I don't do this shit for me, no I wanna get so successful that I can pay Alexa's tuition and her daughter's tuition and her daughter's daughters and her daughter's daughter's daughter I pray to God that my nephew always gon' love his father Fuck that, shoutout Matt Laurence, he told me how to think like a grown man Because I'm not gon' lie, this is gon' be the cringest thing you ever heard, but I used to think like a nihilist and think that everything was over And it got to the point where I had to change the background on my phone to something that said, "It's okay, it's not over" Every single day was the worst, man, wanna I wanna grab the fucking shit and just end up pressing a button and But I can't do that to my mom, I can't do that to my mom Man, fuck this, man, ah I'm not gon' lie to y'all, like I had a conversation with, with Matt a couple, couple months ago and I I was having, like, a introspective battle thinking that everything I made is not art But how I'ma go and let somebody with a Carti profile pic tell me what I am? When I'm a grown man, boy, I'm a grown man Can y'all tell that I haven't got shoat off my mind in a while? I just try to eat everything I can 'cause I gotta be a, gotta be a good example for the fans and I have to be a man in my own eyes I don't wanna cry, I just wanna I don't wanna cry, I just wanna drain this bottle, this bottle, oh man The henny won't save me, the D'usse won't save me Tequila got me moving crazy, I don't wanna I remember, couple months ago, my best friend almost had a baby Man, I gotta talk about it 'cause it's another thing on my mind But Dante Red is, like, so hard for me to make now 'cause I'm not eighteen no more I got different stresses and different ways of coping and different music that I like And everybody wants me to try to figure out a, a, a, a way to bring it back Or a way to try to, try to revive it and I, and I tried, I promise I tried, I promise I tried But every time I open that project, I end up losing my mind 'Cause I look back and I see a younger me, he was happy and loved music and creating But now it feels like I've been stationed and That man woke myself, oh, man woke myself 'Cause, like, that man is me and I'm him too and I just want something to give you that isn't the shit that you're just hearing on the radio That same two-step hi-hat and that same 808 that you've been hearing for like, for like five years and everybody (Uh, fuck) I don't even know what to, if this shit ends tomorrow, then I had a good time and Had a great time, actually Man, this shit is awesome, I do it for a living I would, know a lot of people who would, who would kill for the things that I do, man And every time I meet somebody like that, I grab their hand and I look at them and I tell them, "Try to do this as hard as you can" 'Cause in my eyes, everybody has a damn turn, it's, we just gotta wait and, you know, time is the best me—, like, medicine and You know, we all, we'll figure out what we gotta do and At this point I'm just talking and I'm sorry 'cause I don't wanna make it seem like I'm yapping But I hate that word 'cause yapping is like, such like a Gen Alpha thing and motherfuckers can't speak they mind no more Everybody gotta be like, "Yap sesh" in my damn comments Shut the fuck up Don't you got a vocab packet to do? To do? Like, deadass, you tryna, you tryna say something to me boy? You tryna, you tryna, you tryna join- you tryna say that I'm just talking that I'm just yapping, okay go ahead spell Spell, spell business for me But I bet you can show me how to play Jetpack Joyride You can show me how to play Jetpack Joyride, but you can't spell business You can't spell business, no You can tell me every single glitch in Sonic 06 but, you can't really spell business, no You can tell me all these facts, I mean, how to get outta the map but you can't spell business, no Ooh I will do this until my fucking heart stop And I'm gonna have to cut it off in like, in like the next twenty minutes because I promised that I would hang out with my manager And Zetra, and everybody else and I just wanna kick shit, and just You know, be happy with my life and I think about music all the time and maybe hit a couple bars, you know It was just me and batsponge two deep in the back with them big guns, oh They asking me Eric, man, where you have been? Life all black and white looking like the Bracken She don't even know what happened, wait, I fucked that up She don't even know what happened Ooh, ooh, ohh Man, they tryna say I look like the character from that movie with like the You know that movie where they're like, "We don't talk about Bruno" Man, I really just wanna smoke with Sykkuno, Sykkuno, ooh Imagine rolling up a damn bliggity with Sykkuno, you take it to the face and you like "Man, what you been on? Do you really talk like—?" Oh my god, I'm buggin' I'm buggin' out, oh, oh Who knew I'd get this far with a negative canthal tilt, and an overbite, and an overbite But you know why? 'Cause your bitch like it Your bitch like it, ooh, ooh, ooh And I don't really care, 'cause my girlfriend thinks I'm cute And I don't give a damn fuck what anybody else thinks Type vibe, type vibe, but they don't know That me and batsponge in the backseat with them big guns hanging out the window We was tryna bust some, then we saw reef Asked the boy to meet me, and he hopped inside a car with a fully AR, and he And he busted at everyone, pause I know all y'all bout to be like, "He said 'busted'" Y'all some freak ass jits, oh-oh, oh-oh Yo, word to my life How many of y'all wanna bet that you're gonna see a bunch of people on the damn Gram, and the Tok, and the YouTube shorts Copying what I'm doing right here, but they can't do the same as me because I'm, 'cause who am I? 'Cause I'm ericdoa And I deserve, my voice is kinda, my voice is kinda giving now, but no way 'cause I can still do the falsetto, ooh He said I look like Manny, well, I'ma fuckin' hit you with this benny ​batsponge, make sure he never type in here again Tryna play me like a motherfucking pussy, with a, I'm not I just wanna do a Wock part, I just wanna do a Wock part Put it down, Wocka If reef gets to sing about Wock, then so do I Ain't no way that that kid poured a 4 in his life You saying, "You was not sipping, Eric," how do you know? How do you know? Bro, how do you know? I might already know what type of type you on I swear to God I know that bro is a Zumiez employee, tryna tell me that I never sipped it Ah, you're just so lucky I burped, bro I know that he's a Zumiez employee and he, he just (Hahah) How the fuck you getting bitched over a Primitive board that's already built? Kid walked in, threw that shit on the table, and was like, "Ring my shit up, bitch" Threw that shit in your face and you rang it up like a bitch And it was a Primitive board, it was a Primitive board in [?][1:39:56] Man, I fuck with, I fuck with Primitive heavy and I fuck with all that other shit, maybe like Maybe like, what's the skate company that is, like, kinda fucked up? Um, I don't know Somebody tell the first chat, what the f—, aw, fuck the— Somebody tell the first-time chat guy, that this ain't a song, this is my life and It's coming off the top of my head, only got like ten minutes left Boy, you know, lil' boy I ain't have to work at Zumiez, man, I made a career out my voice I ain't even know I, I ain't even know that I could sing, for real Like, one day, like, I was just in the crib and I was singing some damn songs, and You know, matter of fact, I got one more opinion, man Man, shoutout Nettspend, man, let the kids make fucking music, man Everybody an old ass man, they just hating on him, man They just don't wanna let the kids make music, shoutout Xavier, shoutout all of them, man, they just They don't wanna let anybody just have fun with this shit, like, that's what the main thing for 'em So you're telling me that you wanna hear Meghan Trainor or some other shit like that? Like, you wanna hear Dance Monkey in your ears? Be deadass, be deadass Like, nah, be for real, be for real If you don't like Sexyy Red, you hate women 'Cause, really, she just tryna have fun I get it that she rappin' 'bout the sex and the guns but Have you ever thought about unique life experience? Maybe that's just all she know Not everybody like you, got, like, both parents, got Spectrum internet, got, like a thousand up, a thousand down in the crib Man, fuck you, man I wish I had a thousand up, a thousand down in the crib when I was living with my All my other friends having eight-hundred, nine-hundred and they're like, "Eric, share your screen, do the Ookla speed test" I was like, "Okay," I did my shit, I hit the button, like, "Oh yeah" Little did I know, my ping was like eighty-seven, oh And my upload was a hundred and twenty No wonder why I never got good at video games 'Cause my character, my character was doing the Harlem Shake, the Harlem Shake Harlem Shake on my screen (Ha) I'm just, I'm just tryna be here for the, man, if you listen to my music and you 5'6", I fuck with you heavy, man You gonna make it, this your year, word to my life This your year If you below the height of, like, 5'11", you know I fuck with you heavy 'cause we in the same boat Everybody wanna talk about, everybody wanna talk about, "Oh, you so, you so small" Yeah, well, word to my life, you're gonna die first, ah Actually, I eat like shit and I smoke cigarettes and I drink alcohol, so I'm gonna die first, probably gonna die first I don't do it everyday, but when I get the Henny in my system I'm like, "Word to Marlboro, go dash somebody pass me the max-pack, I'm tryna" You don't understand how fye it feels to smoke a cigarette after you drink, oh-oh, oh-oh You don't understand, you know that Henny hits your system And then somebody come up to you and they're like,and they're like, they're like, "Eric?" and I'm like, "Yeah?" And they're like, "Do you want this Marlboro Gold?" And I'm like, "Erm, yeah, erm, yeah," oh, oh (Haha) (How many, how many minutes I got left? Three? Fuck, I got like a whole song) (How the fuck I end this, man? How do I end this? Alright) Thank you guys for joining and listen to me bullshit I appreciate it, this is all I have, this is all I have At the end of the day, I took a step too far, now if I fuck up, then it's all gone So I appreciate you guys and thank you for staying along Fuck a 2024 song, you got one that's like two hours long I ain't tell my—, I ain't say my goals yet It's kinda hard 'cause I ain't got none (Oh, I'm fucking up) But I'm just tryna be a better person I'm tryna go out, I'm tryna take my career seriously and put everything I fucking have in it If it ever gets dismantled or, or, or touched in any way or destroyed in any way Then at least I put my all into it and I, and I promise I was being lazy before, but But this time I'm being real and this time I'm gonna try my absolute fucking hardest 'cause I did all this work and I don't want it to be for nothing, for nothing I don't want it to be for nothing, oh I don't want it to be for nothing So if I leave you with one true line The only thing you could ever do is try Only thing you could ever do is try [Outro] Goodbye, thank you guys You already know we gon' raid QuarterJade We gon' raid QuarterJade, Jade Gotta get my getback, shoutout Jodi, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh Tell her I said, Tell Jodi I said Tell Jodi I said, "Love from ericdoa" And love to you all For my Hispanic fans, man I wanna leave y'all with something, man, that's important to me, man It's something that I've been living by, something that I've been living by Now, this, "el único gesto es creer o no" And to my fans that don't speak Spanish, man, that means "the only gesture is to believe or not" I broke my mic stand from putting all my weight on it, so I'm 'boutta raid QuarterJade, oh, fuck, my voice got—, QuarterJade She on the VALORANT, hope she wins her game Aight, I'ma—, I'm done, I'm done (Jesus, fuck) If you don't follow her—, oh, fuck, you don't follow her Then I don't know what you doing, man I'll see y'all later, had to get my getback, I love you all