I BELIEVE

I believe, I believe I believe, I believe I'm on the cusp of my star sign I'm an agnostic, I'm on the cynic side When it comes to God, I cannot decide Another a piece of me compartmentalised I've read the magazine personality quiz "I know who I am", I said on the internet I don't give a shit what your people think But I'm making sure you're aware of it I'm living in a secular age, looking for someone to blame Looking for someone to love me, to save or be saved And so this year I abstained in almost every way I cut off all of my hair, I didn't eat for days I couldn't satiate this hunger I contain I had my body bathed in holy water, down the drain But I believe, no A vacancy, an apathy God, the novelty's wearing off on me And the medicine is a funny thing It's the dopamine, it's synthetic and When I call a friend, we don't mention it Discussing the weather while we're both under it But it's temporary, I call it discipline I'm sober, I'm celibate, and God still won't let me in I'm living in a secular age, looking for someone to blame Looking for someone to love me, to save or be saved And so this year I abstained in almost every way I cut off all of my hair, I didn't eat for days I couldn't satiate this hunger I contain You self-inflict the pain, but guilt won't make you clean again But I believe, no I believe in you and me, God, I believe in the machines I heard you're looking for a saviour, honey, put your faith in me Wait for God to intervene, say, "It just is what it is" Blame it all on the eclipse, solar systems, politics But it's the future, it just is It's the future, it just is