The Dark

I cry alone in the night so you don’t have to see my tears And I’m the most unstable when I’m controlled by all my fears I hate how my body is so I avoid these mirrors And ’m not so happy, things aren’t always as they appear The fog is slowly gone and it’s becoming all so clear The version of my happy self is no longer near Feeling this way for the entirety of a year So I listen as the sadness whispers things in my ears I rip myself away into a lonely empty hole And you take yourself away as I sell my whole soul Digging into this depression like a crying little mole I fall down an eternal fireman’s pole Driving on this road alone it’s already 3 am My headlights try their best to push through the dark I’m trapped in But the ghosts of the past stand ahead my racing car They creep and they haunt and keep my thoughts and me from going all too far My emotional comfort runs full out of gas And I’m stuck in the cold wonder how long I can last So I bang my head to get the demons out upon the shattered glass Hoping I won’t survive this mental bash I hike down this path and arrive at the witch’s altar I bow and worship this sadness that has become my martyr She whispers in my ear why have you done this and what have you done Why couldn’t you have made the right choice for once So I scream and I sob and I fall into this hole My breath lefts my chest as I hit the worm filled soil I see the stars and they tell me I don’t deserve my soul And let me tell you it’s real fucking hard to get out of a hole when they take When they take away your rope They sell happiness all wrapped inside a pill So I keep writing these poems just to feel something still This can’t be happening, no this can’t be real But I condemned myself to this place, myself I have sealed So I sprint into the dark to shrivel up all by myself And I look at all these people, how we’re all unkept Secrets from my past come rising to the top And one day I’ll throw myself off the ledge in order to make it stop And they sell joy all wrapped inside a pill Our own unique character our consumption will slowly kill Just swallow it down before you break the rules too hard And stay right there, stay inside your own backyard I want to leave this place and never return I want to leave this place, take my past and let it burn I want to leave this place, and leave no rock unturned Until one day I can make it stop, yeah, I can make it stop