They All Seem So Happy

I can't feel my heart It's been robbed and held hostage I'm drunk on loneliness Out back weeping shirtless 'Cause life has lost its spark It's a black and white film strip Every night delirious Searching for the purpose 'Cause no one seems to be around me All alone or when I'm surrounded These fucked up thoughts Make my head feel crowded My eagerness renders me invalid I tried my best But they're laughing at me Wish it had come easier They all seem so happy In the wasteland of my thoughts I search through the ruins For anything that's left To turn into profit Turn into profit Turn into profit 'Cause no one seems to be around me All alone or when I'm surrounded These fucked up thoughts Make my head feel crowded My eagerness renders me invalid I tried my best But they're laughing at me Wish it had come easier They all seem so happy 'Cause no one seems to be around me All alone or when I'm surrounded These fucked up thoughts Make my head feel crowded My eagerness renders me invalid I tried my best But they're laughing at me Wish it had come easier They all seem so happy