Used To Be

I'm at it again With no beginning or end Words that make me unwell They swell, they put me to bed Smoke settles in Debris that floats in the wind All goes awry, I try to simplify My own complexion Stare at the stranger What's left to redefine? With so much on the line I crumble in the climb, I'm spiraling This not the way I used to be With nothing to prevent A careless accident, I remember now This is not the way I used to be In need of a friend But I've gone too far Chased who I was back then To find stories in these scars Make me accept Am I the same or on par? In my mind, the grandeur in my head My place to disregard Soak in the danger Stare at the stranger What's left to redefine? With so much on the line I crumble in the climb, I'm spiraling This not the way I used to be With nothing to prevent A careless accident, I remember now This is not the way I used to This is not the way I used to be And I let my ego death bloom Shed the past, but forever in debt to All of this, I could never regret you Cuz back then I could never accept you And I let My ego death bloom And make room for new And I let My ego death bloom And make room