Say Yes to Violence

Better selves I could organize, I just wanna look strong If I become who I pretend to be, who have I been all along? A mild-mannered Canadian, useless in our passiveness Apologies for the northern shame, kill with gentleness Message came from the other side; "say yes to violence" There's a voice buried in the waves, keeps begging me to swim Moving fast to get out in front and wash the night out of the cloth And tell you how I got the scar as blood fills my mouth Hard to understand why Half of me, it wants to be enveloped Clouded in my vital signs, a second sight Burning out, I'm pushing back on the fading light Losing trust here on the ledge, I know what it could steal I'm giving in to indifference telling fantasy from real Try to make new memory, the lens blurred I tried to rush And felt the sweat sink through the bed the night I said too much Hard to understand why Half of me, it wants to be enveloped Clouded in my vital signs, a second sight Burning out, I'm pushing back on the fading light