Say Yes to Violence

Better selves I could organize, I just wanna look strong
If I become who I pretend to be, who have I been all along?
A mild-mannered Canadian, useless in our passiveness
Apologies for the northern shame, kill with gentleness

Message came from the other side; "say yes to violence"
There's a voice buried in the waves, keeps begging me to swim
Moving fast to get out in front and wash the night out of the cloth
And tell you how I got the scar as blood fills my mouth

Hard to understand why
Half of me, it wants to be enveloped
Clouded in my vital signs, a second sight
Burning out, I'm pushing back on the fading light

Losing trust here on the ledge, I know what it could steal
I'm giving in to indifference telling fantasy from real
Try to make new memory, the lens blurred I tried to rush
And felt the sweat sink through the bed the night I said too much

Hard to understand why
Half of me, it wants to be enveloped
Clouded in my vital signs, a second sight
Burning out, I'm pushing back on the fading light