Misremembered

[Verses: Fred Thomas & Anna Burch] There was something I was trying to say But I kept losing my grip on the slippery meaning The same way cold resentments can get swallowed By the start of the spring when everything’s beginning Dehydrated dreamers practice shitty tricks in the grass Weak ollies and yin-yang ankle tats These are 5K stragglers, dealership hagglers The sad-faced bystanders on those gas station cameras And there was something I was trying to say But I was followed by a non-descript chemical smell An amateur witch cast her fist binding spell And the laughter of my neighbors in their trailers Punctuated those awful tendrils Awful edges as your hometown keeps extending its bleed Every time that you leave Misremembered Awful passage of some book you didn’t actually read, yeah? And we all navigate the having of bodies and histories It’s a snuff film existence Matthew writes poetry about coffee piss, loneliness The only-ness of his childhood And I do my best to stand in as some simulated sibling A satellite rendition of an oddball older brother A mythical creature who’s got his shit together But it never But it never But it never But it never works There was something I was trying to say But the paperwork at the plasma center ate up the first half of the day The creeps in their cars, they just got in my way I went looking for my friends It was last call again Oh, the embers When the controlled burn that you call your twenties is finally extinguished You know you’ll still need someplace to go Misremembered Every story, every word, every lyric, every mention Everything that I said, everything that it meant But it’s okay! It’s okay There was something I was trying to say There was something I was trying to say There was something I was trying to say There was something I was trying to say There was something I was trying, I was trying to say