Selfish

[Verse 1] I thought that I'd be fine Maybe get to know myself But its hard when the lights all turn off I feel like I'm living hell Maybe I just need time Think I read somewhere that shit helps But its hard when the lights all turn off And I run out of my pills [Verse 2] But how you doing, how's your mother Oh I've been worried about her And are your panic attacks getting easier or harder Feels like I'm pulling teeth out The silence, no conversation Been speaking to myself I think she thinks I'm going crazy [Pre Chorus] Did you get the job you want You always say you hate your boss And I know it's selfish But I hate that you're smiling and I'm not [Chorus] And I know its selfish, sеlfish But I can't help it, help it And I know its selfish, sеlfish But I can't help it, help it And I know its selfish, selfish But I can't help it, help it And I know its selfish, selfish But I can't help it, help it