Emptiness is Everywhere

There I go again, talking nonsense Like when my time comes how am I supposed to know? I'm thinking about the end, about my feelings So please excuse me while I go and get my coat New Year's in July, It's a goodbye Used to always make December with my folks Family's everywhere, 'till it's not there And I get choked up by the fear, it's such a joke And that's how it goes Everyone gets nervous when the lights get low For the ones you know And the end comes slow Emptiness is everywhere, so hold each other close Love is in the air, it's a nightmare They're playing Hotel California on the lawn Family's everywhere, drinking cheap beer Going crazy for a bullshit Eagles song The twins are having kids, hearts are broken My dad lost his oldest friend a year ago And I can't handle it, the fear of losing All the people in my life that I hold close And the few I love so much, please don't let let go And the pain it shows Emptiness is everywhere, the strong lose hope When the door stays closed And hearts grow cold Love is so much losing, how does anybody cope? And I'm afraid of change, but only some days Had a dream that I moved on, then I awoke Some folks stay afraid, change is unsafe If you don't take the chance, how are you gonna know? And that's how it goes Everyone starts crying when the lid gets closed When it goes down slow It's a long drive home No one feels like talking, everybody leaves alone And the panic grows Ain't it such a bummer when the end is close When the fear takes hold Like a silent scream Emptiness is everywhere, it's all around me In twenty-something years, if I stay here There's a place for me that I will never know We're too caught up to care, life is unfair No one's surprised about a January snow