Fog Winter Balsam Jade

I will not despair this time of year When all the lights are shining And the bells are ringing high and clear Oh you can't say I'm not trying And I go out in the afternoon And I'm burying a secret That grew inside me like a moon Til I could no longer keep it You might say something's missing You were mist in morning light How could I have missed this? I want you by my side And nobody made me promises No one offered me protection And still I thought in my green heart That I could be the exception You might say something's missing You were mist in morning light How could I have missed this? I want you by my side Watching the sun set at 4pm Holding the shape of another hand You might say something's missing So I put my hands into the earth And I thank you. You were my first You made me a mother You made me a mother And now every July will never feel the same Or cutting an apple Or hearing your name Or watching the heron take flight in the rain Or fog or winter or balsam or jade Fog. Winter. Balsam. Jade