Rebuilding Year (4 of Diamonds)

Sometimes I stay up all night Sometimes I'm in bed before ten Sometimes I'm not really sure If it's ever gonna to end I caught you at the carnival Cotton candy in your hair I swore we'd never speak again So, like, where does that stand? What are you doing here? Watch my cool just disappear You'll have to pardon my appearance Because it's a rebuilding year Rocky moved to Iowa I lived with Gary 'til he married Nance What's it even matter then? I see no ring on your hand I put mine the deposit box Tried to forget I was happy once Then I stopped getting haircuts Then I stopped giving any fucks What are you doing here? Watch my cool just disappear You'll have to pardon my appearance Because it's a rebuilding year And whats-his-name can go fuck himself I froze his name in a wishing well I'm trying to get better, dear I'm not trying to disappear Don't want to living in a nightmare I'm just trying to get out of here I'm just trying to make it through the year What are you doing here? Watch my cool just disappear You'll have to pardon my appearance Because it's a rebuilding year Well it's a rebuilding year And it's neither here nor there I'm trying to climb back to zero Because it's a rebuilding year What are you doing here? Watch my cool just disappear You'll have to pardon my appearance Because it's a rebuilding year