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Not usually optimistic Tell myself it was just bad timing And if we tried again it Was gonna end with a silver lining I know you don't know exactly what you're feeling now Cause we're both twenty something Still got shit to figure out And I'm not blaming you for holding someone when you drown Cause I like being held by you However long you want me too Guess I was your placeholder Until you got to hold her again And now you wanna act like all we were was friends But I bet you never told her The things you said, the places that we've been I hate to say it but I'd do it all again Cause I love you, I'll admit it At least that's how it feels when I'm in it And I don't doubt that you didn't At least that's how it feels when I'm in it You call when she's asleep and Say you wish it was me in your bed And I hate that I still pick up And let you get in my head I know I don't know exactly what I'm feeling now Cause we're both twenty something Still got shit to figure out and I'm not blaming you for holding someone when you drown Cause I like being held by you However long you want me to Guess I was your placeholder Until you got to hold her again And now you wanna act like all we were was friends But I bet you never told her The things you said, the places that we've been I hate to say it but I'd do it all again Cause I love you, I'll admit it At least that's how it feels when I'm in it And I don't doubt that you didn't At least that's how it feels when I'm in it Guess I was your placeholder Until you got to hold her Again